TheBeaches

Stopped uprating because didn't e
Want to keep pestknf propel pestering people

TheBeaches

Updating dam.

TheBeaches

Were do u post to talk to someone,?!

TheBeaches

Soberwolf

I'm ok how are you

TheBeaches

Talk to myself. It's a dark dark day here. Yes it is or night really. Il be rough to more.

TheBeaches

Are you just okay sober, p and can I ask. Nor that is matters is. Sober wolf a male wolf or a female walf

Jsbodhi

You're not pestering.
How are you?

TheBeaches

Been better how are u thanks for. Responding

Jsbodhi

I'm good today- though I feel guilty because I should go exercise but I have no motivation!
I'm going to try and force myself though.

Is there anything you wanted to talk about? What's bothering you?

Determined1977

The beaches, I just read your post and hope you are doing o.k. I am only on day ten but please know I am rooting for you. If you don't feel comfortable opening up in a social setting, please do it here. I for one am interested and maybe we can motivate each other. Everyone here is so supportive and strangers that I have never met helped me get to where I am. To be honest, my worst day of anxiety sober during the first ten days, is a much better day, then my best day drunk. You are worth it

TheBeaches

Thanks for being so nice. Both of you. Really appreciate it.

I hope you made it to the gym,,!!

I'm feeling really rough. Didn't drink for a month. Then I got drunk tonight. It's 1am now so now in at the point of regret. I had one. . Then ordered 7 tequilas(doubles) to down in the hotel room. . I thought I had willpower. But that's gone

Hevyn

Beaches - that's was the moment of truth for me. Finally admitting that willpower could never work. All my determination to 'just have one' would go out the window once it was in my system. One always led to ending up drunk, in danger, embarrassed. Once the adjustment is made, life is so much better without it. My anxiety was always terrible - it was never fun anymore in the end. Hope you feel better tomorrow.

thomas11

Beaches, take care of yourself. Check in when you can.

Jsbodhi

Xoxo beaches
Just try again tomorrow- I relapsed the other day too.
Just pick yourself up, dust off and keep going xo

TheBeaches

Thank you I do check the post to see if anyone's popped by. But of someone hasn't I feel like I'm just getting on people's nerves updating lol.

TheBeaches

Thanks for being nice unfortunately nothing bad happens when I drink. I just hid three doubles in my room lol and drank it when no one was looking. And then went to sleep but I feel sick. So keep waking up. It's hard. If something bad happened when drunk other than me falling asleep this wouldn't keep happening. And yes really bad anxiety. I'm at the same time I relapsed. A month ago after like two months of nor drinking. It's just a restaurant. I don't know what my problem is. Thanks for ur support

TheBeaches

Thanks for being so nice and honest about you relapsing. I will try and do what you suggested. This is the first time in so long I've just drank f or. The drunk feeling and I hate that I did that.

Can I ask how your doing? Is it okay to ask what triggered your relapse? How long we u sober

OceanGuy

You'll get back on track TB, I believe in you!

Jsbodhi

I'm doing well, I had really really bad anxiety the next day- but I'm feeling good again now.
It was a one night wine binge at home.

I'm not sure what triggered my relapse, to be honest I think it was just not trying hard enough.
I'm not sure how long I was sober for, I don't bother counting anymore because I relapse all the time :/

It's usually every couple of months that I'll just have a one night binge.
I'm trying to stop that though- I'm aiming to just be sober.

I'm a thousand times better than I was 2 years ago when I first joined though.
I'm proud of the progress I've made- but I can do better if I am going to be honest