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It's great to hear from you, Nuu! Four days sober and posting at SoberRecovery is AWESOME! Why not check in to the 24-Hour Club?
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Hi Nuudawn,
It's good to see you posting again. I have replied to your posts a few times in the past with a copy of your own message because you said some really helpful things and I wanted to keep what you wrote.
You mentioned once that a lot of us have no idea how to live sober. It's like being thrown into a foreign country where none of us understand the language or the culture of the people. You also wrote about sitting in your local dairy cream solarium and how relaxing it was.
I very much hope you get back to where you were my friend. Your words were an inspiration and your posts always got many thanks.
Godspeed.
It's good to see you posting again. I have replied to your posts a few times in the past with a copy of your own message because you said some really helpful things and I wanted to keep what you wrote.
You mentioned once that a lot of us have no idea how to live sober. It's like being thrown into a foreign country where none of us understand the language or the culture of the people. You also wrote about sitting in your local dairy cream solarium and how relaxing it was.
I very much hope you get back to where you were my friend. Your words were an inspiration and your posts always got many thanks.
Godspeed.
Welcome back Nuu. Be careful and I hope you find what you're looking for. Just remember, your AV will lie to you to get you to keep drinking.
There's a reason you are on day 4 right now. Congratulations for that! Only you know what's good for you. You've got to look deep down in you to find your happiness.
I can only speak from my experience, but a sober life is so much more fulfilling in every way than when I was drinking.
Be good to yourself. Glad you are back.
There's a reason you are on day 4 right now. Congratulations for that! Only you know what's good for you. You've got to look deep down in you to find your happiness.
I can only speak from my experience, but a sober life is so much more fulfilling in every way than when I was drinking.
Be good to yourself. Glad you are back.
Hiya sistah !
So good to see you here. So so SO good.
So yeah. In regards to the whole "it hasn't been THAT bad, so it must not be that bad, and it was even good.....sometimes" thing. I certainly understand that. I get you. You and I have had that convo a few times when we were both actively drinking. I may have even stupidly encouraged it as a coping mechanism to justify my own crappy behavior towards myself. Ugh. Blech. Not ok. :'(
But, sweet friend of mine, there's nothing "ok" about "falling down drunk", random hook ups, and freezing in the winter.
These words out of you, scare the hell out of me.
I'm so damn proud of you for returning. If even to say, I'm FINE. NO REALLY I AM. NO REALLY. !!! Damn it !!! That right there is you reaching out and saving yourself.
Let's just so this once and for all and git er done, no ?
So happy you came home.
So good to see you here. So so SO good.
So yeah. In regards to the whole "it hasn't been THAT bad, so it must not be that bad, and it was even good.....sometimes" thing. I certainly understand that. I get you. You and I have had that convo a few times when we were both actively drinking. I may have even stupidly encouraged it as a coping mechanism to justify my own crappy behavior towards myself. Ugh. Blech. Not ok. :'(
But, sweet friend of mine, there's nothing "ok" about "falling down drunk", random hook ups, and freezing in the winter.
These words out of you, scare the hell out of me.
I'm so damn proud of you for returning. If even to say, I'm FINE. NO REALLY I AM. NO REALLY. !!! Damn it !!! That right there is you reaching out and saving yourself.
Let's just so this once and for all and git er done, no ?
So happy you came home.
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Hey Nuu - I remember you from my early days on this site. If I remember you had moved to a new location in Canada? You were full of hope and promise. I hope you can regain that and get your life in order... Like AO said, random hookups, falling down drunk and freezing are no way to live and dangerous really. Maybe hang around SR for awhile?
I've missed you & your voice so very much. I have nothing more to offer that hasn't already been said. I want this so badly for you but sadly that's not enough.
Like Alpha said, hearing your life now made me so sad. You were so full of hope & promise - even in the midst of life's uncertainties. You can get back there. I believe it with all my heart.
Welcome home, sweetie darling!!
Xoxoxo
Like Alpha said, hearing your life now made me so sad. You were so full of hope & promise - even in the midst of life's uncertainties. You can get back there. I believe it with all my heart.
Welcome home, sweetie darling!!
Xoxoxo
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I was living a life that I knew was beneath me, and getting worse.
I *knew* I has so much more potential than this...
but the AV kept slapping me down with a 'no you don't even deserve this...' or the ever popular '**** the world...'
Lies, lies and more lies
I don't want to see you freezing this winter so...whats the plan?
D
I *knew* I has so much more potential than this...
but the AV kept slapping me down with a 'no you don't even deserve this...' or the ever popular '**** the world...'
Lies, lies and more lies
I don't want to see you freezing this winter so...whats the plan?
D
How good it was to see so many old friends reply to my post. So good. Those suggesting AA..thank you, not knocking it..but for some reason my particular type of alcoholism finds all kinds of ways in those meetings to find a reason that I can drink..
And sooner or later, a couple of glasses of wine here and there (which I am capable of doing for quite some time) find me a falling down fool sidling up to another man with some sort of addiction or climbing behind a wheel or just generally embarrassing myself and wasting my precious time and resources.
I shouldn't drink. That simple.
Like you say SoberLeigh...I got the sober show going this past Monday. I'm on Day 5. I'm not a big time day counter but with each passing day the resolve strengthens and the light gets brighter to see by.
Thank you all so much...too many familiar names and smiles..wish I could high five or hug ya all.
Please know..I have been happy in so many respects here in my new home. And I do not mean to diminish my problem in any way or make light of drinking... my life is not a shambles...in ways it is far better than its ever been (but it won't be for long in this relapse)..
All I'm trying to say is you don't have to lose everything or define yourself as an alcoholic or get a DUI to know...bone deep know..that you are far better off sober...that life is better. That one doesn't need alcohol for passion and adventure and romance ..and by romance I mean a bigger beautiful life of love and amazement not limited to a love relationship.
I want the cajones to live big without the booze...and that last bit may be perhaps only understood by the self typing.
Thank you.
I'll be round...to check in.
It comes as no surprise to me Dee that your words to me ..nailed it..bang on.
How good it was to see so many old friends reply to my post. So good. Those suggesting AA..thank you, not knocking it..but for some reason my particular type of alcoholism finds all kinds of ways in those meetings to find a reason that I can drink..
And sooner or later, a couple of glasses of wine here and there (which I am capable of doing for quite some time) find me a falling down fool sidling up to another man with some sort of addiction or climbing behind a wheel or just generally embarrassing myself and wasting my precious time and resources.
I shouldn't drink. That simple.
Like you say SoberLeigh...I got the sober show going this past Monday. I'm on Day 5. I'm not a big time day counter but with each passing day the resolve strengthens and the light gets brighter to see by.
Thank you all so much...too many familiar names and smiles..wish I could high five or hug ya all.
Please know..I have been happy in so many respects here in my new home. And I do not mean to diminish my problem in any way or make light of drinking... my life is not a shambles...in ways it is far better than its ever been (but it won't be for long in this relapse)..
All I'm trying to say is you don't have to lose everything or define yourself as an alcoholic or get a DUI to know...bone deep know..that you are far better off sober...that life is better. That one doesn't need alcohol for passion and adventure and romance ..and by romance I mean a bigger beautiful life of love and amazement not limited to a love relationship.
I want the cajones to live big without the booze...and that last bit may be perhaps only understood by the self typing.
Thank you.
I'll be round...to check in.
How good it was to see so many old friends reply to my post. So good. Those suggesting AA..thank you, not knocking it..but for some reason my particular type of alcoholism finds all kinds of ways in those meetings to find a reason that I can drink..
And sooner or later, a couple of glasses of wine here and there (which I am capable of doing for quite some time) find me a falling down fool sidling up to another man with some sort of addiction or climbing behind a wheel or just generally embarrassing myself and wasting my precious time and resources.
I shouldn't drink. That simple.
Like you say SoberLeigh...I got the sober show going this past Monday. I'm on Day 5. I'm not a big time day counter but with each passing day the resolve strengthens and the light gets brighter to see by.
Thank you all so much...too many familiar names and smiles..wish I could high five or hug ya all.
Please know..I have been happy in so many respects here in my new home. And I do not mean to diminish my problem in any way or make light of drinking... my life is not a shambles...in ways it is far better than its ever been (but it won't be for long in this relapse)..
All I'm trying to say is you don't have to lose everything or define yourself as an alcoholic or get a DUI to know...bone deep know..that you are far better off sober...that life is better. That one doesn't need alcohol for passion and adventure and romance ..and by romance I mean a bigger beautiful life of love and amazement not limited to a love relationship.
I want the cajones to live big without the booze...and that last bit may be perhaps only understood by the self typing.
Thank you.
I'll be round...to check in.
I got sober in the spring and I remember driving to a meeting and noticing how beautiful all the blooms were. I didn't notice details like that when I was drinking...it was like I was seeing life in HD after I sobered up. Good to see you again.
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