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Old 06-02-2015, 03:14 PM   #1 (permalink)
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Hi, I am not really sure where to begin so I guess I will just say I am addicted to alcohol. I have had this addiction for around 20 years. I drink every day but I only drink at night. I only drink when I am alone. I don't drink in public or if I do, I drink very little.

None of my family or friends know I have this addiction so I am trying to seek support from other places, as well as offer support when I can. I recently found a therapist, a Psychiatrist, went to an AA meeting (which I did not like and fought back tears through the entire meeting). I am trying to do anything I can to help me get & stay sober. I know I haven't fully given AA a chance and I will go to another meeting at a different location and see if I like it any better.

I went 3 days without drinking last week but messed up Friday & Saturday. This will be my 3rd day (again) without drinking. I hope I can make it through the entire week. Thank you for listening
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Old 06-02-2015, 03:26 PM   #2 (permalink)
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Hi emme and welcome!

There's so much support and encouragement here! If you truly want to quit drinking, you can. It doesn't have to just be something you hope for.....it can be a reality!
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Welcome emme. I am pretty new to this too, so I don't have much advice. I will say day 3 - 4 for me was the beginning of the fog. I just felt like I was in a daze for a few days. It does get better. Just take it one day at a time and read this board. I really helps.
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Welcome Emme, I am new as well. Working on my 8th sober day & planning for a sober tomorrow. Staying close to this site is helping me immensely. I log on several times a day & read, read, & read some more. It helps me to know I am not alone in this.

I hope you will do the same. Good job on the sober days you already gave yourself. Keep it going!!!!
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I already feel myself wanting to drink tomorrow. Friday & Saturday are the days I drink the most. I drank last weekend & started over on Sunday. I am embarrassed to admit it but I drank on Tuesday as well. Now I have two days without drinking but I am very scared about tomorrow. Does anyone have any thoughts? Am I maybe just not ready to do this? There is so much back and forth going on in my head I can't really even think clearly.
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Emme - your AV is telling you you can't do this. That's a lie. You can. Like a lot of us you are in the throws of addiction. Focus on not drinking now, today.
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Hi Emme! How are things going? Hope you've found some fun sober things to help you get through some anticipated rough days.
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hello emme,
i drank just as you describe: alone at home, making sure i protected my secret and my drinking.

i tried to stay stopped for years and couldn't do it.

when i finally did, i added action: participating in a secular non-step weekly meeting, daily involvement on a recovery forum, reading my heart out with recovery-stories of tons of diverse people, telling one or two trusted people.

Does anyone have any thoughts? Am I maybe just not ready to do this?

yes, i have a thought: asking if maybe you're just not ready is a very popular way to keep drinking

check out the secular forums farther down if you find AA is not your cup of tea.
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