Just Beginning
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Just Beginning
Hi, I am not really sure where to begin so I guess I will just say I am addicted to alcohol. I have had this addiction for around 20 years. I drink every day but I only drink at night. I only drink when I am alone. I don't drink in public or if I do, I drink very little.
None of my family or friends know I have this addiction so I am trying to seek support from other places, as well as offer support when I can. I recently found a therapist, a Psychiatrist, went to an AA meeting (which I did not like and fought back tears through the entire meeting). I am trying to do anything I can to help me get & stay sober. I know I haven't fully given AA a chance and I will go to another meeting at a different location and see if I like it any better.
I went 3 days without drinking last week but messed up Friday & Saturday. This will be my 3rd day (again) without drinking. I hope I can make it through the entire week. Thank you for listening
None of my family or friends know I have this addiction so I am trying to seek support from other places, as well as offer support when I can. I recently found a therapist, a Psychiatrist, went to an AA meeting (which I did not like and fought back tears through the entire meeting). I am trying to do anything I can to help me get & stay sober. I know I haven't fully given AA a chance and I will go to another meeting at a different location and see if I like it any better.
I went 3 days without drinking last week but messed up Friday & Saturday. This will be my 3rd day (again) without drinking. I hope I can make it through the entire week. Thank you for listening
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Join Date: May 2015
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Welcome emme. I am pretty new to this too, so I don't have much advice. I will say day 3 - 4 for me was the beginning of the fog. I just felt like I was in a daze for a few days. It does get better. Just take it one day at a time and read this board. I really helps.
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Join Date: May 2015
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Welcome Emme, I am new as well. Working on my 8th sober day & planning for a sober tomorrow. Staying close to this site is helping me immensely. I log on several times a day & read, read, & read some more. It helps me to know I am not alone in this.
I hope you will do the same. Good job on the sober days you already gave yourself. Keep it going!!!!
I hope you will do the same. Good job on the sober days you already gave yourself. Keep it going!!!!
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I already feel myself wanting to drink tomorrow. Friday & Saturday are the days I drink the most. I drank last weekend & started over on Sunday. I am embarrassed to admit it but I drank on Tuesday as well. Now I have two days without drinking but I am very scared about tomorrow. Does anyone have any thoughts? Am I maybe just not ready to do this? There is so much back and forth going on in my head I can't really even think clearly.
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hello emme,
i drank just as you describe: alone at home, making sure i protected my secret and my drinking.
i tried to stay stopped for years and couldn't do it.
when i finally did, i added action: participating in a secular non-step weekly meeting, daily involvement on a recovery forum, reading my heart out with recovery-stories of tons of diverse people, telling one or two trusted people.
Does anyone have any thoughts? Am I maybe just not ready to do this?
yes, i have a thought: asking if maybe you're just not ready is a very popular way to keep drinking
check out the secular forums farther down if you find AA is not your cup of tea.
i drank just as you describe: alone at home, making sure i protected my secret and my drinking.
i tried to stay stopped for years and couldn't do it.
when i finally did, i added action: participating in a secular non-step weekly meeting, daily involvement on a recovery forum, reading my heart out with recovery-stories of tons of diverse people, telling one or two trusted people.
Does anyone have any thoughts? Am I maybe just not ready to do this?
yes, i have a thought: asking if maybe you're just not ready is a very popular way to keep drinking
check out the secular forums farther down if you find AA is not your cup of tea.
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