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Old 04-23-2015, 03:37 PM
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Unhappy The tape

I did not know I was recorded at the clinic 9 months ago...
I saw it today…

I looked absolutely a ******** junkie, 54kg of skin and bone
Could not even understand what I was saying, drug out of my head…
I am so shocked to see it!!! Scared!!! Embarrassed!!!

Can not understand how my head can not grasp it!
I still get panic attacks if I am near anybody with drugs,
I can handle now alcohol after a year but still want to get stoned.

On Saturday I twist my ankle and did not even go to the doctors,
bcos I am scared to go and get pills, I know myself and I swallow the box.
So bandage it, anti-inflammatory and foot up.

The Idea now is:
Put the video on the mobile,
And when I go crazy have a look to remember how I ended up…

A great Weapon for anybody to get taped when they fall and use it.
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Old 04-23-2015, 03:41 PM
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I'm sorry if the video upset you Aiko...but it must be good to see how far you've come.

I hope your ankle is ok - if you need to please do seek medical attention.
You don't have to take meds if you're against the idea
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Old 04-23-2015, 03:53 PM
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(((Aiko))); I am sure the video was upsetting to see but try to remember that those days are in your past; your beautiful and healthy future are all that matters.
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Old 04-23-2015, 05:07 PM
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Originally Posted by Aiko View Post
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The Idea now is:
Put the video on the mobile,
And when I go crazy have a look to remember how I ended up…

A great Weapon for anybody to get taped when they fall and use it.
What a fantastic reaction, Aiko! Put it on your mobile, and use it when the cravings come. That is an amazing idea.

I am glad you are stronger now.
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Old 04-23-2015, 05:35 PM
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I do not even remember.......

I recommend it to anybody is trying to quit!!!
If you are still in it tape it... you will not believe it!!!
So later on you can see the before and after!
Because
We tend to forget the state we were, what we would do for it,
and remember only the high/drunk/un conscience side!
And that is all we think off! We forget the prize for it!
And when you see it you do not recognize yourself....
It helps accepting what you are bcos you do not believe it till you see it!

You never see yourself from outside
is so weird !!!

I am working round my head how to accep it as a handicap for life!
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Old 04-23-2015, 05:40 PM
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Now you can "play the tape through", literally
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Old 04-23-2015, 05:54 PM
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Wow, Aoki! You have some real strength growing. Keep on.
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Old 04-23-2015, 06:01 PM
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Really good...
"play the tape through"
Never came across it

PREVENT RELAPSE - PLAY THE TAPE THROUGH - SlideShare
http://es.slideshare.net/mobile/Sere...e-tape-through

Literaly!
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Old 04-23-2015, 06:11 PM
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Look how far you've come Hope your ankle feels better!
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Old 04-23-2015, 06:21 PM
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Soooo... you had tape on your ankle? And now it's not there?
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I'm proud of you, Aiko. Keep up the great work!
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