ipaidwithmylife

So, I'm reaching 3 months sober in a few days and I now realize that whenever I so much as look at a can or bottle of beer, it makes me sick to my stomach. My brother was drinking some yesterday and I suddenly thought: " Ugh, what's that smell?" It unsurprisingly turned out to just be that: the beer.

And then I found myself wondering why on earth I ever needed that stuff, when I never truly liked either the taste or the smell, to begin with. The simple, yet sobering answer: to mask my own feelings of sadness and depression. I always thought drowning them in a pool of alcohol was a good thing, turns out I was way wrong. Anyone else had this feeling?

mecanix

I sometimes wonder "just what was i thinking" not for long though , i'm too busy trying to live the glorious sober life in front of my eyes



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Ruby2

I've had that feeling. It comes and goes but on the whole, it's water under the bridge at this point. So long as I address the well of sadness in a healthier way than refilling it with alcohol.

Congratulations on three months! That's a good thing. A bigger brighter future!

IOAA2

Congratulations on 3 months, it’s an accomplishment.

“I never truly liked either the taste or the smell, to begin with. The simple, yet sobering answer: to mask my own feelings of sadness and depression.”

Most alcoholics drank for the same reasons and it’s good to recognize that fact.
Now the work begins for long term sobriety, that includes changing and recognizing those triggers so we don’t drink when they come our way again.

BE WELL

gettingsmarter

It's weird. The smell used to remind me of good times. Now it reminds me of crippling anxiety, night terrors and neglecting my life. No thanks.

AliWProk

Congrats on 3 months! That's a major accomplishment!

Dee74

well done on 3 months

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Soberwolf

Congrats on 3 months thats awesome Life

mrjustin

Fantastic news on 3 months, well done keep it up

Buggirl

Well done on 3 months! I too hate the smell now!