Sober view on alcohol
So, I'm reaching 3 months sober in a few days and I now realize that whenever I so much as look at a can or bottle of beer, it makes me sick to my stomach. My brother was drinking some yesterday and I suddenly thought: " Ugh, what's that smell?" It unsurprisingly turned out to just be that: the beer.
And then I found myself wondering why on earth I ever needed that stuff, when I never truly liked either the taste or the smell, to begin with. The simple, yet sobering answer: to mask my own feelings of sadness and depression. I always thought drowning them in a pool of alcohol was a good thing, turns out I was way wrong. Anyone else had this feeling?