Hercules

Hi, hope everyone had an amazing Christmas.

I'll start off by saying Iam an alcoholic have been for a long while although I don't drink everyday when I do drink all bets are off, a lot of bad things have happened in them drinking years the list includes: fights, car crashes, falling over and hurting myself, getting arrested numerous times for drunk nonsense etc etc you get the picture.

I started drinking at 13 Iam now 32 at first it was the best thing since sliced bread the world seemed to be how it should be everything seemed a lot less hostile like a warm glow covered the world, slowly that faded and all that was left was chaos and terror. I have been trying to stop for a long while but always start again.
I started drinking vodka Saturday night and ended up in the police station for 13 hours and being released yesterday afternoon over a stupid drunken antic( punching a door) i got charged with criminal damage, I now have to go to court as the police say it's one time to many drunken arrests. In away Iam using as a positive to change my lifestyle around I use to be athletic and fit but after years of bing drinking and eating crap hungover not so much now!

I just want some hope that it can be done as Iam starting to think Iam just going to continue and eventually loose everything.

Thanks

sprout50

Hercules, Welcom to SR. If you want sobriety, you can have it. Stick around here. You will find lots of support.

Soberwolf

Hi Hercules welcome to SoberRecovery

it is very very possible for me it starts with acceptance

read this & print it off if you like http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html

MelindaFlowers

Yes. It is totally possible. As others have said, acceptance is key. Acceptance means you stop fighting it. For me, that meant giving up the idea that I could moderate my drinking and somehow control it so I could continue without negative consequences.

For me, the cravings went away mostly when I have zero alcohol in my body. One drink? The craving would grow exponentially. It's much easier to have zero.

Commit to not drinking, one day at a time, no matter what.

Fly N Buy

Welcome, Glad you're here!
For me, it wasn't that fact every time I drank bad things happened, but it seemed every time bad things happened - I was indeed drunk!

Keep coming back!

JT0626

Your candor & honesty is refreshing. That's a good solid first step towards recovery. Keep posting here & keep coming back, we are here to support you.

Tang

I too felt alcohol gave the world a nice warm glow. I too started seeing the cracks in that facade. Just know that there is hope in removing alcohol from your life. The lies that alcohol tells you only make your life worse.

Hercules

Coming up to 7 days sober..
I have had many many 7 days 14 days 30 days and even a 90 days but I always go back on the booze until this time!!

I really feel I have seen past the vale of denial almost like the curtain has been slightly raised and I can see the truth... And with the truth i have accepted that for me I can't have just 1 drink it's absolutely morally wrong for me to do so knowing all the carnage I gave caused myself and others!! Before I could justify my drinking but now I can't I really can't!!

Iam ready to leave the alcohol and chaos behind me and move forward, I know it will be hard and I know I need to change but iam ready to fight for my life!!

Happy new year... Peace

advbike

Way to go man, 7 days is outstanding, especially during the holidays. Do you have a plan in place so you don't relapse again? Most of us have found it necessary to have additional support in the early days and weeks. Maybe some AA meetings or joining the December class here on SR, or both..

Good job, and stay strong!

Anna

Hercules, know for sure that you can do this.

You can change your life and be the person you want to be. We're here for you.