Feeling off - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Go Back   SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information >
Register Blogs FAQ Members List Calendar Arcade Mark Forums Read





Reply
LinkBack Thread Tools
Old 12-17-2014, 09:38 PM   #1 (permalink)
Member
 

Join Date: Nov 2014
Posts: 13

Feeling off


Today was the first day in the 16 days I've been sober that I actually was so close to drinking. I had my road test for my class 7 today. I failed and when she told me I failed I think I found my biggest trigger.

It's reaction and failure. I felt so emotional and reckless after. I wanted to go out and get drunk and forget about this day. Thankfully I didn't have much time to sit in self pity because I had to get to my son's christmas concert and be the good supportive mother I know I am. But man was it hard to try and handle today when I just wanted to drink so bad. I'm still an emotional wreck. The kids are in bed and I'm laying on the couch in the dark. I guess I'm just sad.

Thankful to be sober at this moment and thankful I can come on here and talk about how I felt about this day. Longest day ever. Still kicken though.

-Hailz.
hailzmagailz is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to hailzmagailz For This Useful Post:
BernieE (12-18-2014), DeannaM77 (12-17-2014)
Old 12-17-2014, 09:52 PM   #2 (permalink)
Stay Strong and Motivated
 
jayman's Avatar
 

Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Chicago, IL
Posts: 78
Stay strong. Like many of the posts I've seen on here, and I agree with, take it one day at a time. When you wake up tomorrow sober, you'll feel so much better knowing that you beat the urge to drink. After a bad day, a good nights sleep is really the best medicine. As far as your trigger, maybe finding a better way to cope with the stress? I'm no psych, but I like to listen to calming music and take deep breaths. It calms me and helps me focus on what I can do next time to be better.

Well done on 16 days! Stay strong.
jayman is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to jayman For This Useful Post:
BernieE (12-18-2014), DeannaM77 (12-17-2014)
Old 12-17-2014, 10:01 PM   #3 (permalink)
Member
 
Ruby2's Avatar
 

Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: Midwest
Posts: 9,029
Great job on 16 days! That's terrific. I'm sorry you didn't pass the test. I hate when stuff like that happens. It's okay to be sad over it but if you know what didn't go right this time you will be that much more prepared for the next time. Drinking won't make it any easier or change the outcome. When I get that stressed sometimes I just cry and get it out. I come on here and read. I eat ice cream when I have an urge. It passes.

So hang in there. Well done on not surrendering.
Ruby2 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to Ruby2 For This Useful Post:
BernieE (12-18-2014)
Old 12-18-2014, 01:10 AM   #4 (permalink)
Be the best version of you
 
Soberwolf's Avatar
 

Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: brb
Posts: 66,800
Blog Entries: 4
Quote:
Originally Posted by hailzmagailz View Post
Today was the first day in the 16 days I've been sober that I actually was so close to drinking. I had my road test for my class 7 today. I failed and when she told me I failed I think I found my biggest trigger.

It's reaction and failure. I felt so emotional and reckless after. I wanted to go out and get drunk and forget about this day. Thankfully I didn't have much time to sit in self pity because I had to get to my son's christmas concert and be the good supportive mother I know I am. But man was it hard to try and handle today when I just wanted to drink so bad. I'm still an emotional wreck. The kids are in bed and I'm laying on the couch in the dark. I guess I'm just sad.

Thankful to be sober at this moment and thankful I can come on here and talk about how I felt about this day. Longest day ever. Still kicken though.

-Hailz.
Hailz well done on day 16 sorry today was hard i just want you to know that last paragraph was awesome

Thank you and i hope you have a nice reenergising rest
Soberwolf is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 12-18-2014, 01:38 AM   #5 (permalink)
Member
 
Foolsgold186's Avatar
 

Join Date: May 2014
Location: Scotland
Posts: 780
You made it through the day, well done on 16 days!

Stay strong.

L x
__________________
Sober - 27th June 2014
Foolsgold186 is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 12-18-2014, 03:47 AM   #6 (permalink)
Life is an unlikely miracle.
 
JanieJ's Avatar
 

Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: England
Posts: 1,862
Blog Entries: 7
It's not so much what happens as how we deal with it. I know exactly what you mean by emotional and reckless, I can relate to that so much.

Well done for staying strong.

16 days is amazing
__________________
Stop trying to leave, and you will arrive.
Stop seeking, and you will see.
Stop running away, and you will be found.
-Lao Tzu.
JanieJ is offline   Reply With Quote
Reply


Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Thread Tools


Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 10:32 AM.