Feeling off
Today was the first day in the 16 days I've been sober that I actually was so close to drinking. I had my road test for my class 7 today. I failed and when she told me I failed I think I found my biggest trigger.
It's reaction and failure. I felt so emotional and reckless after. I wanted to go out and get drunk and forget about this day. Thankfully I didn't have much time to sit in self pity because I had to get to my son's christmas concert and be the good supportive mother I know I am. But man was it hard to try and handle today when I just wanted to drink so bad. I'm still an emotional wreck. The kids are in bed and I'm laying on the couch in the dark. I guess I'm just sad.
Thankful to be sober at this moment and thankful I can come on here and talk about how I felt about this day. Longest day ever. Still kicken though.
-Hailz.