You won't be surprised... I'm not.
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Canada
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I know the choice is mine. I don't have the responsibility some of you have. You know I am a seasoned vet of the SR family. You know I know most of the motivation behind your replies. I have used them on new comers myself. I'm just sick of my self don't feel bad about me. You cannot help me unless I want you to. I don't know what I want. I don't even know what I need. Just don't bother yourself with frustration. I will tell you what I need when I know it. I love ya bunches.
People here care about you. Last weekend in this community there was a grieving workshop put on in local restaurant and this weekend I noticed signed for a special church service for folks having to deal with grief over the holidays. There are resources out there to help you deal with this pain...move through it...so you don't feel so much like you're drowning.
I really, really hope you reach out for some real live hugs from people also dealing with similar losses.
What you are dealing with IS painful. We understand and only want you to seek out more effective comfort and understanding in the real world.
I lost my grandmother and grandfather both in October within 10days of each other. It was very very hard to not drink during the time and even to today. I am very glad I was able to muster enough strength to do it though. Stay focused and know we are all here.
That's not true Raider. We all have a responsibility to ourselves and those around us to take care of ourselves and deal with life. It's pretty common for our addiction to tell us that though...that we are somehow different from everyone else, and in turn using it as an excuse to drink.
You are a veteran of SR, and you do know the intentions and motivations of those reaching out are straight from the heart. I hope you can find the strengh to take some of the steps that have been suggested. You can't do this yourself.
You are a veteran of SR, and you do know the intentions and motivations of those reaching out are straight from the heart. I hope you can find the strengh to take some of the steps that have been suggested. You can't do this yourself.
Today was hard. I wanted to call her. I miss and love her so much. I'm sick about it. I called my Mom. instead. Not the same. She is sick and didn't got to Church. She is so depressed. I feel her broken heart and it breaks mine.
Raider, I'm sorry youre hurting and your mom is hurting too. I'm glad you called her. I hope your family can cling together and get through this.
tomorrow, see about finding a bereavement counselor, it really does help find a way through the pain.
Love from Lenina
tomorrow, see about finding a bereavement counselor, it really does help find a way through the pain.
Love from Lenina
Unfortunately life happens. There will always be an excuse to drink but none of them will be good ones.
I have the best excuse in the world but here I sit very sad but very sober. I will be talking to a grief counselor on Monday because I'm failing apart. Still drinking is not an option
I have the best excuse in the world but here I sit very sad but very sober. I will be talking to a grief counselor on Monday because I'm failing apart. Still drinking is not an option
I know the choice is mine. I don't have the responsibility some of you have. You know I am a seasoned vet of the SR family. You know I know most of the motivation behind your replies. I have used them on new comers myself. I'm just sick of my self don't feel bad about me. You cannot help me unless I want you to. I don't know what I want. I don't even know what I need. Just don't bother yourself with frustration. I will tell you what I need when I know it. I love ya bunches.
scared of the pain I anticpated, scared of what I might find in that pain...
scared of finding I might never get through it, but most of all, scared about getting through it, and then wondering what will I feel once I do get through it
I wondered if I'd lose my loved one. Would I be letting them down by not feeling so raw? would that make me guilty?
I didn't lose anything. The memories are all there, even the space is still there, but the pain is manageable, that's all.
I gained the will and strength to carry on and use the life God gave me.
Noone deserves to live in pain Pam.
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Gatineau, QC, CA
Posts: 5,100
Bumping this one back at the top.
Our friend Pam needs us. Let's skip the plans, this and that worked for me, or any smart lessons. Only positive messages.
Pam, you made some solid friendships on SR. Let us help you carry the burden of your terrible lost.
Today, may the lord shine his light upon you, may his wisdom and love help you trough today.
Our friend Pam needs us. Let's skip the plans, this and that worked for me, or any smart lessons. Only positive messages.
Pam, you made some solid friendships on SR. Let us help you carry the burden of your terrible lost.
Today, may the lord shine his light upon you, may his wisdom and love help you trough today.
Pam,
Thank you for being my friend.
I'll always remember and appreciate
your kind words and witty humour.
You've helped me more than you realize.
I'm sure most of our SR brothers and sisters
would agree with me, as well. We all love you.
We are here for you, my dear sister.
Thank you for being my friend.
I'll always remember and appreciate
your kind words and witty humour.
You've helped me more than you realize.
I'm sure most of our SR brothers and sisters
would agree with me, as well. We all love you.
We are here for you, my dear sister.
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Join Date: May 2014
Location: Washington, MO
Posts: 2,306
Ok Raider, my turn. You posted on my tapering thread back in May when I joined and I remember. I read almost all your posts just because. I also notice your absences and worry. I think you need to let alcohol go first or at least realize both losses have become intertwined. Grieve them both sober. It may be hard but you only have to do it once. Alcohol will never let you get through this but only if you let it.. We, and those dear to you need YOU back.
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