I know, I KNOW!
I know, I KNOW!
I've been messing around, I know I shouldn't. I have had a drink from time to time. Never more than two but still.....I almost posted but I knew what the response would be. Soooooo I haven't really had any craving, just the thought I'll just have one....fully knowing what the end result would be. Until last night....I had a crave to end all craves. Knowing what will happen if I give in, I did NOT have one. I am one step away from what I was and I don't want to be that person ever again.
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No judgments here. Your just going to have to work at it a little harder. You know where moderation leads to and it doesn't end well.
Ahhhhhhhhh the Fuzz just makes my hard day melt away. Thanks for the Fuzz pic.
Ahhhhhhhhh the Fuzz just makes my hard day melt away. Thanks for the Fuzz pic.
EndGame
Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: New York, NY
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I dunno. Did you expect that I/we would beat you senseless?
No one ever said this was going to be easy. No matter the concrete circumstances of our lives, we don't need to be Sherlock Holmes to know why we pick up the drink again.
A trend has emerged in your drinking and in your sobriety. You commit to sobriety, then you straddle the line, but you don't celebrate your "drinking events," and you continue to come back and seek help.
If SR isn't for you, then who is it for?
No one ever said this was going to be easy. No matter the concrete circumstances of our lives, we don't need to be Sherlock Holmes to know why we pick up the drink again.
A trend has emerged in your drinking and in your sobriety. You commit to sobriety, then you straddle the line, but you don't celebrate your "drinking events," and you continue to come back and seek help.
If SR isn't for you, then who is it for?
Glad you're back! I have my days where I question everything. I minimize the bad memories and forget just how bad things really were. Keep coming back. Some people never come back from a relapse and I've been to too many funerals lately.
One drink today might turn into a binge with serious consequences. I'm not playing that game anymore. I want to live and be free.
I'm going to visit my loved one in prison today. Another thing I think about when the alcohol tries to trick me into drinking again.
One drink today might turn into a binge with serious consequences. I'm not playing that game anymore. I want to live and be free.
I'm going to visit my loved one in prison today. Another thing I think about when the alcohol tries to trick me into drinking again.
End-I'm smart enough to know better. Nothing to celebrate in my drinking event. Having just one is murder. Yea, I pretty much expected and probably deserve a SR beating...
Fandy - I didn't take the pic when drinking. I try to take a few so I have some fresh material for you. No I'm not any of that. We stopped looking for a house. Even though the mortgage company doesn't care if I have enough chocolate on hand. They would lend so we can buy yet another house. I just don't want to stress anymore about selling the utah house. Staying here gives me some peace of mind as we were already paying for this place, might as well flop in it. The Utah house will sell when it's time. I'm not bored. I love it here. I thought I would hate it because it's so small. But there is something liberating about having 4 spoons, 4 forks and 4 plates. 400 sq ft vacuums in about 90 seconds. No washer and dryer so there is non of that. It's really relaxing. I have absolutely no reason to drink, non at all. Non. I'm just a bonehead.
Fandy - I didn't take the pic when drinking. I try to take a few so I have some fresh material for you. No I'm not any of that. We stopped looking for a house. Even though the mortgage company doesn't care if I have enough chocolate on hand. They would lend so we can buy yet another house. I just don't want to stress anymore about selling the utah house. Staying here gives me some peace of mind as we were already paying for this place, might as well flop in it. The Utah house will sell when it's time. I'm not bored. I love it here. I thought I would hate it because it's so small. But there is something liberating about having 4 spoons, 4 forks and 4 plates. 400 sq ft vacuums in about 90 seconds. No washer and dryer so there is non of that. It's really relaxing. I have absolutely no reason to drink, non at all. Non. I'm just a bonehead.
Cmon now, that's not true an you know it. You are an intelligent person who also happens to be an alcholic, there are plenty of us. You simply need to put your foot down and take the necessary action to make sobriety something you DO, rather than something you think about. Maybe that means biting the bullet and going to AA every day. Maybe it means forcing yourself to spend a certain amount of time here posting every day. Maybe it means counseling. Mabye it means all of those things, or something else I didn't list. But the truth is that whatever you are doing now isn't working - so you have to change.
Raider, be kind to yourself. That would be a really good start.
I think you know you need to make a change to your recovery program so that you do fight harder to not drink. Try something different.
Love to The Fuzz!
I think you know you need to make a change to your recovery program so that you do fight harder to not drink. Try something different.
Love to The Fuzz!
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