Thepatman

Hello everyone,

A while since I put up my own thread. I am not a man of long texts or fancy words.
Been doing good, one day at a time enjoying the simple and beautiful things sober life offers. Saying it's easy as pie would be a lie, but baby steps work wonders.

I came across this documentary, really eye opening, thought it could inspire some newcomers that might be sitting on the fence about getting help if they need and specially about seeing a doctor when we have issues.

Dee, moderate as you see fit my friend. Nothing violent in the content.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_dJ97Vwoup4

Take care everyone, let's never forget Ryan in the documentary.

Dee74

I can't watch stuff like this.
We've had this posted before and noone complained so I think it's ok.

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Thepatman

Thanks Dee, I understand I cried my eyeballs out. But a good cry and gratitude to be sober.

foryoumyson

Wow very powerful and sad case of alcoholism what a wake up call.

Ptcapote

I watched that in early sobriety, also cried my eyes out. And scared the living crapola out of myself (which was a good thing). Like Dee, I can't watch that stuff anymore but it is a very stark look at what this disease does to us. And how it doesn't discriminate either.

Another very powerful one is Rain in My Heart. It's a British documentary, along the same lines. That one had a huge impact on me, too. Think you can get the whole thing on YouTube.

Thanks for this reminder, Patman. There before the grace of God go all of us...

LadyinBC

Yes I too watched this and this young man broke my heart and I bawled.

There was just something so enduring about him and the mother in me just wanted to give him a big hug and make everything better for him.

RIP Ryan and I hope he has found peace. God bless him and everyone else who has lost their lives to this horrible disease.

Edited to add: I have made myself all teary eyed.

Mountainmanbob

I saw this program when it was on TV

we all (if alcoholic) need to remember

by the Grace of God there go I

Bob

Sasha4

I can't watch this either.
Seen bits of it before.

Rest in peace Ryan. xx

Hereandnow2

Thank u for this!9

digdug

I can't watch this stuff either. But I forced myself to watch it when it was posted before because that was me. That was my life. Every single detail, down to the hip issues (I've had both of mine replaced at age 32 because of alcohol related avascular necrosis).

The only difference is I didn't die in detox. Well, technically I flat-lined, but I woke up.

So I don't watch now because of PTSD related issues. But I'm glad I did watch it once.

DisplacedGRITS

Oh man, I thought it was this one. I saw this documentary a few weeks ago. It's so sad. It's hard to watch someone suffer from active alcoholism. If it hurts me this match to watch a stranger suffer, how must my family have felt watching me?

Lionhearted1

Just watched this.... Very very sad!!! Really shows how bad this stuff can get. In my opinion they need to show documentaries like this in schools..

I thought Ryan was going to make it and it was going to be a happy story, shows the truth of addiction.. It wants us dead!!!

Thepatman

What it really opened my eyes to was the physical dependency. I was always "chicken" in my Alcoholism. I never crossed the line to hard liquor and only drink on weekends, I knew I had to at least hold my job.

Suffice to say that I was never physically dependent, never got the shakes. Could detox with only mild anxiety. So a part of me (my AV) was convincing me that I'm not that bad.

I thought getting to that level was for the weak. But I clearly saw that once physically dependent, not matter how strong minded one can be, it becomes a need, a medicine.

I hope I keep learning, knowledge is key for me.

Thanks mom for your protection, may god hold you in his arms so you can RIP. Amen.

Onward and upward!
Pat the man ;-)

letitgo

Thanks for the great video share!!! Speechless.....

nigey1

I'm like you Patman, tried to be an alcoholic and hold my life together, it nearly did me in mentally though with the stress of it all. Glad we don't have to do that any more.

Lionhearted1

Totally agree Patman.. You can really see there is a massive difference between physical dependence and mental... You could see the trap in front of him, he wants to stop but his only cure is more poison!!! Very scary!

ultradad

wow, that was hard to watch, but grateful I did. There but for the grace of God indeed!

PurpleKnight

A great reminder that alcohol is a serious business!!

Imabuleva

I can't watch this but I know what video it is. Funny that while we're doing it to ourselves it's not as heart wrenching

Redviper

This video described my friend 100%. Down to the diagnosis, damage and all. Her funeral was today. This is hard to watch and a must watch at the same time. So many memories and so much pain today.