soberlife123

I give up.
I'm powerless over alcohol.

I can't do this alone.

This time it ended in a physical confrontation between myself and my (now ex) fiancee and he had me escorted from the premises by police.

Luckily I wasn't charged with anything.

I can't do this. I've told all my friends this time that I am an alcoholic and I. cannot. drink.

This time I'm going to be honest about it. No more lies. No more hiding behind the bottle. I'm staying with my mother's and she's decided to quit drinking as well. This is an alcohol free zone.

I'm going to a meeting tomorrow night with one of my best friends.


This time I'm going to do this. New sobriety date is July 13, 2014.

I can do this this time. I'm going to beat this thing.

instant

Life is easier without alcohol, once I took my blinkers off, and stopped listening to my own babble I could see how liberating a commitment to sobriety can be. I hope you feel better soon........thank god for mothers

FreeOwl

When everything is torn down, it gives us a chance to build again.

Welcome.

Get to that meeting. Get a Big Book. Stay on here daily. Today, you start construction on a new and beautiful life.

Gilmer

Determine not to drink no matter what the temptation, and your life will improve dramatically! It takes time and perseverance, but it's so worth it!

Natom

Fair play lawgirl. Keep on keeping on!

Natom

PurpleKnight

Yeap recognising our lack of control over alcohol is the first step, this cuts out all the thoughts down the line of "maybe one drink won't do any harm" or "maybe I'm cured after a period of abstinence" etc

For me the problem was that 1st drink and it needed to be cut out to make any progress.

Great job on getting a plan in place, you can do this!!

Wastinglife

Lawgirl, I know exactly how you feel right now. I was arrested by police and spent the night in jail after fighting with an ex-gf. It was only a verbal confrontation but I was drunk and she was scared. I can be quite a mean person when drunk. It was the straw that broke the camel's back so I went to my parents when we broke up the next day. Went to rehab soon after.

I still have guilt and shame for the chaos I caused many people. It's tough to sleep at night sometimes but I know that wasn't the real me.

least

I hope this is your last day one.

soberlife123

I get it. I finally get it. I can't drink ever again. Not a drop. Never.

Nuudawn

Sounds like the right headspace..which is essentially, defeat. Glad you're with us.

soberlife123

And i've told my friends. That was the big thing before, I lied about it so I could still drink around certain people.

Gilmer

Honesty in all things across the board is the key to a healthy and whole life.

Hevyn

Lawgirl - you sound ready. We have to be.

I felt so much better when I told everyone. They all knew anyway - and they were concerned, but afraid to approach me about it. It was a huge burden lifted when I admitted how out of control I was.

You will get free. Life will be so much happier.

robgt350

Law

for me the hardest part was admitting i was an alcoholic. but sounds like you got a plan. stay sober, life is so much better

soberlife123

The worst part is I miss my ex fiancee so much it's like a hole in my heart.

Gilmer

CAPTAINZING2000

Thank you for reminding me why I quit drinking!!

freshstart57

Lawgirl, you say that you 'can't drink again'. I feel that nothing happens here, there is no shift in thinking, until you say I WILL NEVER drink again. Have you quit? Have you closed the door on any and all future drinking, no matter what? Can you see yourself going forward doing the things that sober folks do? Do you deserve to have a life without any alcohol in it?

soberlife123

I will never drink again

Anna

Lawgirl, I'm sorry you've found what many of us have - things get worse and worse until we stop. I'm glad you're ready for recovery.

I'm sure you do miss your ex, and it's sad that sometimes we can't fix the things we messed up while drinking. But the main thing now is for you to put your energy into taking care of yourself.