Janis

I have the same problem as you do with relapsing. It really stinks but as my sponsor has said to me multiple times, "what other people think is none of your business". People are always going to judge and I feel that way too but really this journey isn't about what others think it's about getting better. You are not the only one who goes through chronic relapses and there is hope. I know several ladies, one who was a relapser for seven years and she's been sober for 3 years now. Just keep at it. This is a disease that rests in the animal part of the brain. It isn't about will power and desperation is our gift. I wish you the best of luck this time and just keep coming back.