Well......I am not sure if you actually admitted that you have a problem. But if your life has become unmanageable because of your alcohol use then you do. I never really considered myself an alcoholic. If I had the choice between
a drink or a drug--Its the drug!(alcohol is a drug--yes) But....It was when I went to detox/rehab that I realized(with the help of professionals) that I have major problems with alcohol. Detox/rehab is an option. Have you tried any AA meetings? Really take a look at yourself. Be honest. I think you already know the answers. Admitting that you have a problem is very hard--
took me a long time to really and trully see where my life was going. Talk to someone--either a counselor or a person in AA-someone that you really trust--that isnt going to say to you "join the club". Hang in there--AND KEEP COMING!!! This site is of great support--GOOD PEOPLE HERE!!