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Old 01-06-2014, 05:29 PM   #1 (permalink)
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Back with a heavy heart


But glad to be here with you all - again!

Off to bed, day zero.

Nothing changes if nothing changes x
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Old 01-07-2014, 08:18 AM   #9 (permalink)
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Hey all Thanks for the welcome backs.

Feeling ok today, trying not to overthink and overwhelm myself at the moment with 'nevers' and 'change' I just want to be kinder to myself if that makes sense. Stop doing my own head in and abusing myself.

Anyway will check back in later, just wanted to say thanks
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Feeling ok today, trying not to overthink and overwhelm myself at the moment with 'nevers' and 'change' I just want to be kinder to myself if that makes sense. Stop doing my own head in and abusing myself.
'Kinder' sounds good, MyTimeNow Glad you're back and posting!
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Welcome back MTN. Yes, this is your time now! Focus on the present and what you can do for yourself in the here and now.
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Old 01-07-2014, 11:40 PM   #15 (permalink)
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Thanks everybody

Congrats on your 1 year RAL! I've been lurking if not posting

Lol thanks Jess, not feeling very rockin' at 6.30am but hey - day 2 here we go...!
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I've thought of you often Max. Great to have you back. We've missed you x
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Ah thank you Jeni, that's so nice to read. Must make DO NOT ISOLATE AGAIN my top rule (after not drinking of course) I've just always felt such a failure starting over and over... and over again...

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Thanks Louise, it's all to easy to do and perfect AV... just me, the wine and 'peace'. Yeah right.

Ok, better get cracking for the day, have a good one!
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Hi MyTimeNow. Good to see you back. I've just popped back myself. Nice to see some familiar faces.

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