I am knew..I am scared..
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I am knew..I am scared..
I have a problem drinking and this is the first time I have actually said it out loud. I just yelled it. wow that felt good. I feel like I have been going in circles and repeating the same steps that brought me down last time. I think thats the definition of insanity almost. Why have I been so fogged and unaware of what I am doing to my body, my family and my friends?. I called myself a "social drinker" for many years. But the truth is I am an alcoholic, and need help. I am not going to explore to much today, but I have started. Not sure if this is a good way to start, but just to share I have lots of support from my husband as well as a few friends. I will definitely have to wean out those "social friends" i guess I could call them. I figured anyone that seemed upset or bothered at my mention of sobriety, may get weaned out. I am a fun drunk, but not an excuse for lack of friends support. They can love the sober ME, or not. I will be very clear and eyes open wide. I start my first meeting on the 1st of January.
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Welcome!
It sounds like you have support from your husband, which will be helpful. And, it's good that you understand some friends may have to go. That's a tough step, but many of us have to do that. Early sobriety is often a time when many changes are needed.
It sounds like you have support from your husband, which will be helpful. And, it's good that you understand some friends may have to go. That's a tough step, but many of us have to do that. Early sobriety is often a time when many changes are needed.
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To reply to those who already posted, thank you for the support so fast.
And to Kat60: I AGREE. I am going to start today. I was sick with bad cold so its been 4 days w/out a drink. Thanks for that jolt, it helped me make solid decision to stop now. I was excited to get drunk one last time New Years Eve...not anymore. I AM READY.
I start meeting on the 1st only because I get my car back from mechanic next week. I know I will get support in the mean time and feel very positive.
And to Kat60: I AGREE. I am going to start today. I was sick with bad cold so its been 4 days w/out a drink. Thanks for that jolt, it helped me make solid decision to stop now. I was excited to get drunk one last time New Years Eve...not anymore. I AM READY.
I start meeting on the 1st only because I get my car back from mechanic next week. I know I will get support in the mean time and feel very positive.
We'll be rooting for you and supporting you all the way 
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Welcome kflee! It made all the difference when I came here and said it out loud. It relieved me of so much anxiety - I felt free. Congratulations on your 4 days. It's going to be a great new year for you.
It made all the difference when I came here and said it out loud. It relieved me of so much anxiety - I felt free. Congratulations on your 4 days. It's going to be a great new year for you.
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Welcome kflee, you are already on your way. This place is excellent for support and help along the journey, especially in the beginning when the wanting to drink tries to over take your decision that it isn't the life you want. The meetings and support of your true friends and family will help carry you far.
I was told on my first post here, to post as much as I wanted, about whatever I wanted and I would be presented with replies from people who know EXACTLY what I am going through. It was the most truthful thing ever said to me.
You are among friends, and we will get through this together. If you need to vent, vent. If you need to cry, cry. If you need someone to just shut up and listen, you will be carried to the next day without a word... I have witnessed these things here, regularly.
I was told on my first post here, to post as much as I wanted, about whatever I wanted and I would be presented with replies from people who know EXACTLY what I am going through. It was the most truthful thing ever said to me.
You are among friends, and we will get through this together. If you need to vent, vent. If you need to cry, cry. If you need someone to just shut up and listen, you will be carried to the next day without a word... I have witnessed these things here, regularly.
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WOW. Thanks for all the immediate responses. I already feel comfortable, and that is rare when I don't have a cocktail in my hand. I am a P.T. Aide and stopped home to kiss my kids goodnight before my last client of the afternoon...decided to hop on and was surprised and happy to read all of your posts. I can tell that I will be on this site a lot. I am starting to feel like tonight will be a restless night. I will come visit if I lay awake.
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