Hungover Again.
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Having spent time in the clinical field I know that sometimes a sliding-scale-fee is available for people that do not have health insurance. In general, substance abuse as well as mental health counseling is covered by the majority of health insurances; often times people will have to pay a co-pay. Most often this type of sliding-scale-fee is found winthin counseling agencies versus people who are doing individual counseling on thier own. It wouldn't hurt to simply ask.
I, however, totally agree with the fact that AA is free and available to everyone!
I, however, totally agree with the fact that AA is free and available to everyone!
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Join Date: Dec 2012
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Hi Mammy and Welcome!
You are certainly NOT a failure. It takes more strength to acknowledge a problem & deal with it than it does to ignore it.
I have one child, a daughter who turns 21 next month, who I raised on my own. Unfortunately for her, she was raised with a Mother who was a raging alcoholic for the first 18 years of her life. I wasn't there for her most times. Her teenage years, when she needed me the most, she couldn't get my attention. If she did open up to me, I was drunk and combative. I constantly embarrassed her in public by coming to school and sport functions drunk. I once peed in front of everyone at a soccer game. Yep, that's right. I dropped my drawers and peed. I was drunk at the time & thought it was hilarious.
I first became sober in January 2011. I never saw my daughter so happy. I did relapse 3 times. My last relapse ended just 47 days ago. Each relapse caused my daughter to trust me just a little less. She told me during my last relapse that she was terrified that alcohol was going to kill me and she'd spend the rest of her life having to tell this to people for the rest of her life.
My point in telling you is this: your babies need a sober Mama. They deserve it. YOU deserve it.
It's scary to get sober. I get it. But I guarantee it's worth it! Go to your meeting. Sit and listen. Cry if you want, many do at their first meeting.
You can do this. We all believe in you. We'd like you to believe in you too.
You are certainly NOT a failure. It takes more strength to acknowledge a problem & deal with it than it does to ignore it.
I have one child, a daughter who turns 21 next month, who I raised on my own. Unfortunately for her, she was raised with a Mother who was a raging alcoholic for the first 18 years of her life. I wasn't there for her most times. Her teenage years, when she needed me the most, she couldn't get my attention. If she did open up to me, I was drunk and combative. I constantly embarrassed her in public by coming to school and sport functions drunk. I once peed in front of everyone at a soccer game. Yep, that's right. I dropped my drawers and peed. I was drunk at the time & thought it was hilarious.
I first became sober in January 2011. I never saw my daughter so happy. I did relapse 3 times. My last relapse ended just 47 days ago. Each relapse caused my daughter to trust me just a little less. She told me during my last relapse that she was terrified that alcohol was going to kill me and she'd spend the rest of her life having to tell this to people for the rest of her life.
My point in telling you is this: your babies need a sober Mama. They deserve it. YOU deserve it.
It's scary to get sober. I get it. But I guarantee it's worth it! Go to your meeting. Sit and listen. Cry if you want, many do at their first meeting.
You can do this. We all believe in you. We'd like you to believe in you too.
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Originally Posted by Mammyof3boys 
You are right. Little guy is not having a great day with me, which isn't fair.
I don't want anyone from CPS to come here ever, I know what I have to do.
I don't want anyone from CPS to come here ever, I know what I have to do.
That being said, AA has saved people from thousands and thousands of dollars of counseling/therapy sessions.
I hope you put yourself first and get to one of those meetings tonight.
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Sorry to hear that sobreitygrl4-I hope you get children back soon. Can't imagine what you are going through. Thanks for sharing your story.I'm only 37 days sober but reading your story has really strengthed my resolve to continue. My son is 3 and can't imagine what you are going through. (hugs)
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Welcome back Mof3 
Reaching out for help is a *biggie* I think.
Noone really does this alone - noone I ever met anyway.
Sometimes I think we have to 'break cover' and ask for help...especially if our ways not working and we keep finding ourselves awake at 3am, heart pounding, head screaming, eyes filled with tears....
You deserve better.
You're not a failure - you're just addicted...like the rest of us.
It's *entirely* possible to turn your back on the past, have the life you want, and be the person, and mom, you want to be...
you can do this - but you have to make some changes and you have to take that first step
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Originally Posted by Mammyof3boys
I don't know. I wish I knew what changes I need to make.
Noone really does this alone - noone I ever met anyway.
Sometimes I think we have to 'break cover' and ask for help...especially if our ways not working and we keep finding ourselves awake at 3am, heart pounding, head screaming, eyes filled with tears....
You deserve better.
You're not a failure - you're just addicted...like the rest of us.
It's *entirely* possible to turn your back on the past, have the life you want, and be the person, and mom, you want to be...
you can do this - but you have to make some changes and you have to take that first step
D
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