I'm right there with you!
Today is 18 days without a drink. In 16 days, I didn't have any withdrawal symptoms or cravings. Easypeasing, right? And then, WHAM, yesterday (day 17) I couldn't stop thinking of having a glass (just one of course) of wine with dinner. I was having such a hard time shaking the . . . desire? . . . thought? . . . craving?
In the end, I "white knuckled" myself through it, and happily can report today is sober day 18.
But like you, what am I gonna do now? How am I going to get through the holidays? How does one actually do this?
Sorry, I'm of no help.
I'm just right there with you wondering the same thing.
I do know we'll both find a way to get through this though