The "just one" is scary because at that little window of time I believe that and that is a slippery slope to me.
Yep, EXACTLY!
Yesterday, before the craving for "just one" hit me, I was thinking a lot of my drinking habit; was I actually an alcoholic or not? When the "just one" craving hit, it was like validation. That's the way an alcoholic thinks.
The whole time that I was in the thick of this craving (approximately 1 1/2 hours), I knew (I just KNEW) that my "just one" rationalizing was like a mental illness or something. I mean it wasn't realistic. And why was it so important to have "just one" anyway?
I think it would be a whole lot easier if I had been thinking "what the hell, I think I'll get drunk even if it will ruin the progress I've made AND make me feel like CRAP in the morning" . . . cause at least that's more realistic.
Next time a craving hits me, I'm going to try to remember that only crazy people or alcoholics obsess about having "just one" drink.