Welcome Bmbdhbr. People here are generally kind.
Well, from your post it sounds like believe you have a problem with alcohol. If that is true, then try to find a way to achieve a sober life. You've done well, and it sounds like you want that to continue. Find a way to stick with it. Consider a support group of some form.
FYI, just over two years ago I did what you did. I wanted to see if I could go Monday through Friday without drinking. During that time someone reached out to me, and I knew I wanted to continue with sobriety. I made it to that Friday and just kept going with it. It sucked at times, but I am at a place I would never be at if I didn't stop drinking. A much better place.
In the end, you need to decide what you want to do and go for it. Keep us posted.