Hi Sym -
Part of recovery is building what I call my "advanced warning tools" - which are basically my ability to listen to what my brain and body is telling me.
When I hear myself start talking in a way that I know leads to no good, I have developed a series of responses that I immediately execute. For me, it is reading/writing on SR or going to an AA meeting or calling my sponsor or working with another alcoholic. I also have practiced specific things I will say to myself to counteract the "little voices" telling me that I can drink again.
This is hard work, but I've learned to feel very empowered about my recovery - all while surrendering to the fact that I can't ever control my alcohol (quite a paradox, I know).
We are all proud of you. Please work actively on a program of recovery. Congrats on 6 months.
The New Me as of 1/11/09
Still searching for that darn wisdom to know the difference. Do you know where I can find some?