bellakeller

I just think of it as something that will kill me. It might not be fatal to others but it is to me; like a bad allergy, where one can go into anaphylactic shock if one ingests the allergen. That's what taking a drink really means to me now.

artsoul

You can do it, Healthy. I spent hours on this forum every day at first. It helped pass the time, kept me focused, and it was a lot cheaper than going to rehab!

If one day at a time seems like too much, just get through the next hour or two. Treat yourself to some good food. Read, write down your feelings, watch a movie..... whatever it takes to pass the time. It's going to feel strange and boring, but keep bringing your mind back to what you want to accomplish.

I wish you all the best - you deserve a happy life!:day6

eJoshua

Hi Healthy Food -

Best of luck to you! I would try quitting for a year and see how it feels. By then you should have an adequate idea of whether or not you want to make it "permanent".

Threshold

I get antsy when I start thinking about forever, I mean that's a long time, like a REALLY long time to NOT use. Then I realize that hey, I won't be around for forever, so, no big deal!

Or, I do this...turn it inside out. I am going to live clean, forever...hey now THAT sounds pretty spiffy. Me, sober, forever. I LIKE that.

but mostly, I'm good with "for today" I don't plan to use again, but the committing to staying clean each and every morning is a ritual I sorta like.

sugarbear1

We always believe our lies. Don't stop until you're ready. The pile of lies will hurt you. You'll know when you're ready! Best wishes!

sugarbear1

Just don't drink today.