I need help
Its_me_jen
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
Posts: 8,547
I made it home and ate some food.
He was able to call me. There is a bond hearing tomorrow.
Now I'm trying to figure out how I'll get the money.
I don't think I'll sleep tonight.
I hate being alone.
He was able to call me. There is a bond hearing tomorrow.
Now I'm trying to figure out how I'll get the money.
I don't think I'll sleep tonight.
I hate being alone.
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Join Date: Jul 2011
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I am so so sorry. It sounds like it's really difficult to let go of these feelings you are having. You will be hugging your fiancé very soon. Like others have said, try not to be alone. Stay on SR. Write your biography. Try to keep busy. I know this sucks! Ugh!
When I'm feeling like this, when things are happening that are out of my control, I tell myself that it could be worse and that I don't deserve to feel so stressed out. I'm not very good at managing stress but practice makes perfect.
Please, for the precious life inside of you, please try and relax.
Congratulations! This is my very poem of all time by Khalil Gibran:
Children
And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, "Speak to us of Children."
And he said:
Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts.
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable
When I'm feeling like this, when things are happening that are out of my control, I tell myself that it could be worse and that I don't deserve to feel so stressed out. I'm not very good at managing stress but practice makes perfect.
Please, for the precious life inside of you, please try and relax.
Congratulations! This is my very poem of all time by Khalil Gibran:
Children
And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, "Speak to us of Children."
And he said:
Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts.
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: Kansas
Posts: 10,182
I was always told that you can't have fear and faith at the same time.
Things will work out.
If nothing else, I have often repeated the serenity prayer over and over to ease up anxiety.
Sending you hugs of support!
Things will work out.
If nothing else, I have often repeated the serenity prayer over and over to ease up anxiety.
Sending you hugs of support!
Its_me_jen
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
Posts: 8,547
Thank you all so much for the kind words.
I'm a little less stress out but am tired as hell and have a headache.
There was no bond hearing -- that was B.S.
But.
An AA lawyer friend went and spoke with him. A bailbondsman called and told me what the bond was. I've paid it and am waiting on the Sheriff's Dept to finish the paperwork. I guess. I'm so clueless.
Either way, they said he would get out today.
I'm a little less stress out but am tired as hell and have a headache.
There was no bond hearing -- that was B.S.
But.
An AA lawyer friend went and spoke with him. A bailbondsman called and told me what the bond was. I've paid it and am waiting on the Sheriff's Dept to finish the paperwork. I guess. I'm so clueless.
Either way, they said he would get out today.
Its_me_jen
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
Posts: 8,547
Just wanted to say thanks again for the support. I really needed it.
So, we've got a long road ahead of us, with lawyers and judges and who knows what else. Money will be tight, real tight. I'm sort of stressing that a bit. Most of my clothes are already very tight. Not sure how I'll afford new stuff.
The pregnancy .... it's very early so anything can happen. I'm not telling many people, just family and close friends for now. Seeing the OB next Monday. We're both very excited and a bit scared but we know we can do it. It will all work out somehow.
So, we've got a long road ahead of us, with lawyers and judges and who knows what else. Money will be tight, real tight. I'm sort of stressing that a bit. Most of my clothes are already very tight. Not sure how I'll afford new stuff.
The pregnancy .... it's very early so anything can happen. I'm not telling many people, just family and close friends for now. Seeing the OB next Monday. We're both very excited and a bit scared but we know we can do it. It will all work out somehow.
Its_me_jen
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
Posts: 8,547
I am a member of AA. Going on three years unless you count between the ages of 16 and 30 when I sporadically attended meetings, never got a sponsor, never worked a step and kept on drinking.
Legal Stuff
Just got some good news .... a lawyer is taking on D's case. He loaned him a dollar so D could pay him!! Who ever heard of that!! OMG, things are beginning to work out. I told D things are going well because he's spent the last 2 years doing the right thing.
We have to pay the lawyer what we can when we can. This is doable.
D was very emotional on the phone when he called to give me the good news. He just can't believe things are going well. I am so happy and proud of him.
I'm gonna keep my fingers crossed.
Legal Stuff
Just got some good news .... a lawyer is taking on D's case. He loaned him a dollar so D could pay him!! Who ever heard of that!! OMG, things are beginning to work out. I told D things are going well because he's spent the last 2 years doing the right thing.
We have to pay the lawyer what we can when we can. This is doable.
D was very emotional on the phone when he called to give me the good news. He just can't believe things are going well. I am so happy and proud of him.
I'm gonna keep my fingers crossed.
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