guyinyvr

Thanks Wiharu

I too had spotty memories of stuff and luckily have yet to go over an edge I know I would fully run right over if i drink. The power and insanity of the stuff can be so overwhelming and all consuming as alcoholics know.

I could easily see myself in your shoes ...I have done some very silly , irrational and dangerous things , some I remember , many I don't. I woke up a little before losing my life , wife , kids and all the rest but I coudl be back there tomorrow unless I work it.

Congrats on 15 and there is a way through it, have a great 24

fragileflower

That's exactly what I wanted to say! You're story is keeping me sober. Hang in there. Never give up HOPE.

fragileflower

TexasNative

I'm really sorry this happened to you. Towards the end of my last heavy, months long binge I started w-the terrifying blackouts myself. I'd wake up for work wondering if I ate dinner and have to look in the trash (under the beer cans) to see if there was any evidence of dinner. Sometimes there would be fast food wrappers, meaning I drove to a drive-thru, ordered, drove home, ate...and didn't remember a second of it. F*** drinking, I hate it and it hates me.