Originally Posted by Antiderivative

Honestly, your implications that I am terminally unique and that I shouldn't have a right to my own opinion is becoming a tad frustrating. I know that you are trying to help, but perhaps you should consider a different approach.

I have been through the steps twice and I have been working them again for the past couple of months. In fact, I picked up after 3 1/2 years when my faith in a HP was the strongest.

I am not fighting you people. In fact, I am taking your advice, but that hasn't stopped the fact that I have occasionally found myself on the brink of self-destructive alcoholic behavior.

I want sobriety. I like being sober and hate being drunk. I don't want to drink anymore. I don't want to drink against my will. I have been doing that for far too long with outright negative and destructive consequences. This **** needs to end.

In fact, I am leaving shortly to go do stepwork with my sponsor.