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Old 02-15-2010, 07:53 PM
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My Dad is losing his battle...

...I mentioned a few months back that my Dad was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. We were given so much hope in the beginning, they found it early, it was small etc...here we are a few months later, I really don't know if he will make it through the night. He is so medicated for pain, he only has moments of clarity here and there (he is in Hospice) . This SUCKS, I am not ready to let him go.

Through all of this, I am sober, and I don't want to drink. I am grateful for the last 15 1/2 years I have had sober to enjoy time with my parents. But the pain of the situation is horrible. I have friends that have lost a parent, but I never really knew how they felt until now. I HATE this...I need a hug.

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Old 02-15-2010, 08:02 PM
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((((CATHY)))) I'm so sorry.
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((((Cathy))))) - I'm so sorry, sweetie. I know when I lost my mom, it was like I lost a big part of me. It does suck, it hurts, and I don't think we are EVER ready to let them go.

Huge hugs and prayers!

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I know it's hard Cathy. Here's a big (((hug))) for you. I'm glad you're not tempted to drink. Here's another hug for you from us.
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I know how you feel, I lost my father 14 years ago. It's not something you get over, but you will come to accept it.

Be with him, and treasure each moment you have right now with him. And please take care of yourself, it is very important.

I will be thinking of you.
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I'm so sorry too Cathy.
You, your Dad and your family have all my prayers.

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Old 02-15-2010, 08:42 PM
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Old 02-15-2010, 08:52 PM
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I feel your sorrow.

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...I mentioned a few months back that my Dad was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. We were given so much hope in the beginning, they found it early, it was small etc...here we are a few months later, I really don't know if he will make it through the night. He is so medicated for pain, he only has moments of clarity here and there (he is in Hospice) . This SUCKS, I am not ready to let him go.

Through all of this, I am sober, and I don't want to drink. I am grateful for the last 15 1/2 years I have had sober to enjoy time with my parents. But the pain of the situation is horrible. I have friends that have lost a parent, but I never really knew how they felt until now. I HATE this...I need a hug.

Cathy
I admire you greatly.

I have been going through a bad time recent. Broken engagement, lost home, laid off from work and to add to all that my dad has also been fighting cancer, so I know exactky how you feel.

Unfortunately I am not strong like you.

I have been hitting the bottle.
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Prayers for comfort to you and your family.
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Old 02-15-2010, 09:05 PM
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Old 02-15-2010, 10:31 PM
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This SUCKS, I am not ready to let him go.
We are never ready to lose a parent. My prayers are with you and your family.


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Old 02-15-2010, 11:04 PM
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I can feel your pain because I lost my Mom in July. Although she didn't have Cancer, she was in terrible pain. The last 3 days, they had her so heavily medicated that the only time she reacted was when they would turn her and then she would cry out in pain. Hospice came to the Nursing Home and took over her care. I was so grateful that they were there, because I don't know how I would have gotten through it. I didn't pick up while going through this and after her passing while making all the necessary arrangements, thank God.

I would sit next to her bed and hold her hand in the middle of the night when the rest of the world seemed to be sleeping. What thoughts went through my mind was how grateful I was that Mom got to see me live almost 4 years Happy, Joyous and Free from the obsession. (She passed away 10 days before my 4 Year Anniversary) I know how proud of me she was, just like I'm sure your Dad is so proud of you. We both gave our Parent's the greatest gift we ever could give them, seeing their Daughter's overcome this disease of addiction and move on with our lives.

The last words that my Mom spoke to me were, "I love you too." I'm crying as I type this because I know how you're feeling right now. As much as I want my Mom back here with me, I would never wish her back in the pain that she was in. She truly is in a better place but I know she watches over me with much pride in her heart.

My Prayers are with you and your Family during this difficult time.

God Bless,
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I'm so sorry Cathy.
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Cathy, prayers for you and your family. Proud of you for not drinking. It's wonderful when we no longer lean on that crutch, but face things clear-headed. I'll be thinking of you today. Love, Joanie
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Hi Surley,

I am so sorry that you are going through this. I hope that you can feel some peace spending time with your father. I am sending big hugs your way and lots of prayers.
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Old 02-16-2010, 02:29 PM
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Thank you all so much for the support, it helps more than you know. I feel the hugs, and they are much appreciated. When my Dad does have a moment of clarity, he smiles at me, and it melts my heart. I am also so very grateful to be able to be here for my Mom in her time of need, sober.

Please say a little prayer for my Dad, please pray that he is not scared, that bothers me the most, I just don't want him to be scared.

Thanks so much,
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