Back to Day 1
Back to Day 1
Here I am again.
Anyone who read my previous thread will know that I lost my fiancé, job and home all in the course of a few months. I hit rock bottom and hit the bottle more than I had up until that stage. I drank almost everyday. Sometimes moderately, sometimes more heavily. Mostly I would drink wine and it would average out at about two bottles a day. When I needed to I would cut down, but when I had free days I'd hide away and drink to numb the pain of life.
Now, the problem I have is that I have a job interview next week and I want a clear mind. I need to move on with my life. Yet, I can't say that I want to at the moment because of the withdrawals and the post booze depression that I am suffering. Also, the booze numbs the pain of losing my girl and the stress my lack of income is putting on my mortgage.
I have gone through plenty of detoxes before over the years that I have been battling my binge drinking. However, I had not drunk to the level that I have in recent times during those previous detoxes....and I had more reasons to go through the withdrawals. Reasons that no longer exist.
However, the other problem I have is that I can no longer afford the alcohol. Therefore I have no choice but to do this.
So, I need your support people. I know that if I can get through a week without the drink I'll be ok.
Pray for me.
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I'll keep you in my prayers, and I'll also pray that you take action and do the work.
Almost 5 years ago I gave away my marriage, home, dogs, almost gave away the kids and job.
5 years later I didn't get it back. What I got was much, much better. I wouldn't want that old life back. Living a life clean & sober has brought me to a place of peace.
It starts with not taking another drink, then you'll learn to live life one day at a time.
Almost 5 years ago I gave away my marriage, home, dogs, almost gave away the kids and job.
5 years later I didn't get it back. What I got was much, much better. I wouldn't want that old life back. Living a life clean & sober has brought me to a place of peace.
It starts with not taking another drink, then you'll learn to live life one day at a time.
Great post Astro, ElChupacabra (great name, btw) I hope you can draw off Astro's experience, and know that the same can be had for you one day. One day, one hour, one minute at a time, you can do it.
You'll be in my prayers as well.
You'll be in my prayers as well.
2 bottles of wine a day=about $20 if you're drinking the cheap stuff.
Just think, you'll save at least $140 a week!
x4=$560 each month you could save....or at least use for the bills you need to pay
Things can only go up from here!
Just think, you'll save at least $140 a week!
x4=$560 each month you could save....or at least use for the bills you need to pay
Things can only go up from here!
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