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Old 02-09-2010, 02:19 PM
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Here I am again.

Anyone who read my previous thread will know that I lost my fiancÚ, job and home all in the course of a few months. I hit rock bottom and hit the bottle more than I had up until that stage. I drank almost everyday. Sometimes moderately, sometimes more heavily. Mostly I would drink wine and it would average out at about two bottles a day. When I needed to I would cut down, but when I had free days I'd hide away and drink to numb the pain of life.

Now, the problem I have is that I have a job interview next week and I want a clear mind. I need to move on with my life. Yet, I can't say that I want to at the moment because of the withdrawals and the post booze depression that I am suffering. Also, the booze numbs the pain of losing my girl and the stress my lack of income is putting on my mortgage.

I have gone through plenty of detoxes before over the years that I have been battling my binge drinking. However, I had not drunk to the level that I have in recent times during those previous detoxes....and I had more reasons to go through the withdrawals. Reasons that no longer exist.

However, the other problem I have is that I can no longer afford the alcohol. Therefore I have no choice but to do this.

So, I need your support people. I know that if I can get through a week without the drink I'll be ok.

Pray for me.
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Old 02-09-2010, 02:22 PM
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Welcome back! I will keep you in my prayers.
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I'll keep you in my prayers, and I'll also pray that you take action and do the work.

Almost 5 years ago I gave away my marriage, home, dogs, almost gave away the kids and job.

5 years later I didn't get it back. What I got was much, much better. I wouldn't want that old life back. Living a life clean & sober has brought me to a place of peace.

It starts with not taking another drink, then you'll learn to live life one day at a time.
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Great post Astro, ElChupacabra (great name, btw) I hope you can draw off Astro's experience, and know that the same can be had for you one day. One day, one hour, one minute at a time, you can do it.

You'll be in my prayers as well.
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Old 02-09-2010, 03:55 PM
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Welcome back El C - I hope you make it through the week - like Astro says, take action and do the work.

I hope too that you find a sincere inner desire to quit

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Old 02-09-2010, 06:23 PM
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Originally Posted by ElChupacabra View Post


the booze numbs the pain
Welcome back, glad to see you are giving it another try!

Although the booze numbs the pain, it does not deal with it. I have learned that the hard way, myself. You may wish to consider AA or counselling to help you with your breakup.
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Old 02-09-2010, 06:25 PM
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2 bottles of wine a day=about $20 if you're drinking the cheap stuff.

Just think, you'll save at least $140 a week!

x4=$560 each month you could save....or at least use for the bills you need to pay

Things can only go up from here!
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Old 02-09-2010, 06:46 PM
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Originally Posted by Omega10 View Post
Welcome back, glad to see you are giving it another try!

Although the booze numbs the pain, it does not deal with it. I have learned that the hard way, myself. You may wish to consider AA or counselling to help you with your breakup.
AA can help with the break up?
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Old 02-09-2010, 07:59 PM
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Sorry, I worded that incorrectly. It should have read:

You may wish to consider counselling to help with your breakup, or consider AA.
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Glad you came back to SR. Stick Close.
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