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Old 12-20-2009, 04:07 PM
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3 times a charm....

Well I'm back after failing miserably on my own. Tried to limit myself, and as you all know that just snowballed into a huge mess. Anyway, I am on day one again and hoping to make it this time...thanks for reading...

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Old 12-20-2009, 04:10 PM
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Welcome back Jade!
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Old 12-20-2009, 04:11 PM
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hi Jade
good to see back on track

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Old 12-20-2009, 04:14 PM
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Thank you both...<3
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Old 12-20-2009, 04:18 PM
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Welcome back, Jade.
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Hi Jade, I am back on day one too so your not alone, last night the drinkin thinkin set in hard and it was too late before i realized it...

Welcome back!
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Old 12-20-2009, 04:24 PM
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So you know its coming...What are you going to do diferent? So that your not doing it alone this time?
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Somethingbetter, exactly what happened to me too...I just want this to be over with. I need to really change things up. Do things differently..Day one together!! I hope and pray I don't get too sick...feeling a bit scared and anxious...
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Old 12-20-2009, 04:25 PM
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Aysha, I'm def. going to try more meetings but in all honesty, everything has to change, not just one specific area. From the outside to the inside, my habits to my thoughts...I don't think I can get sober without a complete overhaul....
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Old 12-20-2009, 04:41 PM
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Welcome back! I found out that I couldn't recover all by myself. Glad to see you posting again. We do recover.
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Old 12-20-2009, 04:51 PM
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I just have the worst feeling in my stomach...can't shake it. The guilt all over again. The poor decisions and choices...I think for me, forgiveness is key. I just can't seem to forgive myself...I know I deserve better and have a chance to live a somewhat healthy and productive life. I just don't get it. I really HATE this freaking disease, addiction, whatever it is...it really pisses me off!
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Old 12-20-2009, 05:24 PM
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it's hard to get over that feeling of doom Jade...but it's one of the factors that can bring us back to drinking if we don't let it go and move on.

There's nothing you can do about what you've done except learn the lessons that I'm sure are there.

I used to post here and help others out. It not only helped others but it got me out of my own head a little, and made me feel less down on myself too.

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Old 12-20-2009, 05:45 PM
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Thank you Dee
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no worries Jade

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Old 12-20-2009, 06:08 PM
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Hi Jade,

Welcome back!

I got stuck in the downward spiral of drinking - guilt/shame - drinking. It was so scary, but please know that you can get out of this and move forward with your recovery.
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Good to know you are off to a fresh start....
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Old 12-20-2009, 09:19 PM
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Hey to all of you just starting over. Do join our Class of December 09. The more the merrier, and the stronger we are. We can keep ourselves and others sober, one day at a time.
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Old 12-20-2009, 10:09 PM
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I agree jade. I think the key is forgiveness and letting go.

And def acceptance. I know that has been huge for me. To accept alot of things.
accept what I have done and then in turn accept there is nothing I can do to change the past.
But the future is an empty canvas.
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Old 12-21-2009, 01:59 PM
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Hi and welcome back! I am glad you are here. SR is here for you! You can do it..
Heck, us addicts do so well together, look, you and I even share the same avatar.. LOLOLOL
Just some silly humor. I really am glad you are back! Keep coming back and make sure you do all of those things. Change it all up, really confuse your addiction, and hopefully find the real you under all that hard work you're about to do. It will be worth it!
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