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Well I'm back after failing miserably on my own. Tried to limit myself, and as you all know that just snowballed into a huge mess. Anyway, I am on day one again and hoping to make it this time...thanks for reading...

Jade19

Welcome back Jade!

hi Jade
good to see back on track :)

D

Thank you both...<3

Welcome back, Jade.

Hi Jade, I am back on day one too so your not alone, last night the drinkin thinkin set in hard and it was too late before i realized it...

Welcome back!

So you know its coming...What are you going to do diferent? So that your not doing it alone this time?

Somethingbetter, exactly what happened to me too...I just want this to be over with. I need to really change things up. Do things differently..Day one together!! I hope and pray I don't get too sick...feeling a bit scared and anxious...

Aysha, I'm def. going to try more meetings but in all honesty, everything has to change, not just one specific area. From the outside to the inside, my habits to my thoughts...I don't think I can get sober without a complete overhaul....

I just have the worst feeling in my stomach...can't shake it. The guilt all over again. The poor decisions and choices...I think for me, forgiveness is key. I just can't seem to forgive myself...I know I deserve better and have a chance to live a somewhat healthy and productive life. I just don't get it. I really HATE this freaking disease, addiction, whatever it is...it really pisses me off!

it's hard to get over that feeling of doom Jade...but it's one of the factors that can bring us back to drinking if we don't let it go and move on.

There's nothing you can do about what you've done except learn the lessons that I'm sure are there.

I used to post here and help others out. It not only helped others but it got me out of my own head a little, and made me feel less down on myself too.

D

Thank you Dee

no worries Jade :)

D

Hi Jade,

Welcome back!

I got stuck in the downward spiral of drinking - guilt/shame - drinking. It was so scary, but please know that you can get out of this and move forward with your recovery.

Good to know you are off to a fresh start....:yup:
Welcome back Jade

Hey to all of you just starting over. Do join our Class of December 09. The more the merrier, and the stronger we are. We can keep ourselves and others sober, one day at a time.

I agree jade. I think the key is forgiveness and letting go.

And def acceptance. I know that has been huge for me. To accept alot of things.
accept what I have done and then in turn accept there is nothing I can do to change the past.
But the future is an empty canvas.