i quit drinking while i was on vacation. now i'm back to work, 2nd day at work and things are feeling way too overwhelming. so many personality clashes, have mediation in fact with someone i've been clashing with for years now (a real control freak, triggers the heck out of me) tomorrow. which i'm dreading. can't even imagine doing a 3 hour mediation session w/ someone who makes me feel so f*** up.
i'm also feeling really sensitive - edgy - weepy. like i just can't handle 'the world' right now, ya know??
and last night my g-friend mentioned she would join a gym so that she'd 'be ready' for next time - in the same breath saying she knew it would never happen again (i pushed her when drunk - that was the last time i drank). and that the prospect of me boxing (i mentioned i might like to box for exercise) made her feel 'unsafe.' and basically she said 'no, you can't take up boxing.' which is fine, i understand that, i do... so i won't... but her crying & looking at me like i'm a monster again and feeling like such a horrible person again...
and work BS...
i don't know how to manage these things (stress i guess it's called) w/out the promise of booze in the near future).