What's your poison?
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same tune...different beat...
for me vodka was choice...but honestly...anything i can get my/ COULD GET my hands on....and i agree with all fo the thoughts posted...but mostly it's a need to feel different, the need for more, and to just to not have the thoughts i do when sober---they are so depressing.............
i never realized how much of the reality i was blocking out with my drinking....??? i thought i drank cause i liked it...enjoyed it???...not because i was trying to block out and not think about the reality of it all.....i know life is hard on everyone....but how does one go about making things better???
for me vodka was choice...but honestly...anything i can get my/ COULD GET my hands on....and i agree with all fo the thoughts posted...but mostly it's a need to feel different, the need for more, and to just to not have the thoughts i do when sober---they are so depressing.............
i never realized how much of the reality i was blocking out with my drinking....??? i thought i drank cause i liked it...enjoyed it???...not because i was trying to block out and not think about the reality of it all.....i know life is hard on everyone....but how does one go about making things better???
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expensive vodka and cocaine. then quit the coke and kept the expensive vodka on the daily menu. then couldn't afford the expensive vodka so bought the cheap stuff which always make me sick as a dog. finally quit the vodka and moved to red wine in a bottle. oops too expensive, make that red wine in a box. red screwed me up and made me sick so moved to white (in a BOX of course). then just finally gave it all up. (that's a 25 year run down all accompanied with a gazillion cigarettes).
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1) "What's your poison?
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What? be truthful........................
2) it will help....explain it all............................................... ............."
or
2) it will help....explain it all............................................... ............."
3) explain it all............................................... ............."
Like Dee74, early on in this thread....: "not following you Jade - whats up?" I'm a bit confused by this OP. I see where most are answering #1 above as to their preference (be it alcohol, and what kind, and/or drugs and what kind), and for me I would have to answer..................ALL; didn't really matter to me, as long as it got me high. But, I didn't then, nor do I now, consider any of it/them poison, per se.....
But that's where my understanding of the OP ends.....OK, I understand being truthful, but 'it will help'...?; to what does 'it' refer?.....being truthful in answering, or just naming one's preference? ....and does the phrase 'explain it all' mean for us to explain all about our preference, or will our being truthful and naming our preference 'explain it all'?......again, whatever it is.....?
See.....? I really am confused. Perhaps you could explain this, or expand on it a wee bit.........eh, jade09.........?
NoelleR
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What? be truthful........................
2) it will help....explain it all............................................... ............."
or
2) it will help....explain it all............................................... ............."
3) explain it all............................................... ............."
Like Dee74, early on in this thread....: "not following you Jade - whats up?" I'm a bit confused by this OP. I see where most are answering #1 above as to their preference (be it alcohol, and what kind, and/or drugs and what kind), and for me I would have to answer..................ALL; didn't really matter to me, as long as it got me high. But, I didn't then, nor do I now, consider any of it/them poison, per se.....
But that's where my understanding of the OP ends.....OK, I understand being truthful, but 'it will help'...?; to what does 'it' refer?.....being truthful in answering, or just naming one's preference? ....and does the phrase 'explain it all' mean for us to explain all about our preference, or will our being truthful and naming our preference 'explain it all'?......again, whatever it is.....?
See.....? I really am confused. Perhaps you could explain this, or expand on it a wee bit.........eh, jade09.........?
NoelleR
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Originally Posted by jade09 
same tune...different beat...
for me vodka was choice...but honestly...anything i can get my/ COULD GET my hands on....and i agree with all fo the thoughts posted...but mostly it's a need to feel different, the need for more, and to just to not have the thoughts i do when sober---they are so depressing.............
i never realized how much of the reality i was blocking out with my drinking....??? i thought i drank cause i liked it...enjoyed it???...not because i was trying to block out and not think about the reality of it all.....i know life is hard on everyone....but how does one go about making things better???
for me vodka was choice...but honestly...anything i can get my/ COULD GET my hands on....and i agree with all fo the thoughts posted...but mostly it's a need to feel different, the need for more, and to just to not have the thoughts i do when sober---they are so depressing.............
i never realized how much of the reality i was blocking out with my drinking....??? i thought i drank cause i liked it...enjoyed it???...not because i was trying to block out and not think about the reality of it all.....i know life is hard on everyone....but how does one go about making things better???
yup me too... vodka being the regular and wine for calming down in evening/morning or if vodka didnt work.... whisky.... if vodka ran out, gin.. ....beer for the inbetween/break times.... cider for nutritional content...anything that was in the cupboard/on the floor...... pills/coke/K.... if i couldnt get drunk enough..... self medicating with sleeping pills/benzo's to mix it up a bit.. oooo yumyum....
don't miss it!
strangest that all of that was done with the intention to make me feel different/ stop thinking.... and it certainly did that... but nothing good.
oops turned into a confusing mini rant haha
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Originally Posted by Jade19
Began with Whiskey but it made me "mean" so I switched to beer and wine....gave up the wine, stuck with beer...finished the beer would drink the whiskey...ughhhh I have no off button...
interesting to read actually
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