i bought booze
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i bought booze
Yesterday I got my fourth tattoo...went wonderfully...felt realllllly good about it (always a warning sign!). My kids were all off at their fathers' for the night...the house was all mine, knowing I wouldn't have any kids to watch....I wanted to drink and had been thinking about drinking the entire week. I went to the liquor store, bought wine and vodka, felt like a criminal in line to pay for it. I kept thinking, "NOW's the night to do it! You're not going to get another chance this perfect. No kids!" etc., etc.. I even had options of two different guys to go out with that night...both of them I KNEW would result in drunkness.
What did I do?
(hehe..sorry for dragging this out...but I'm feeling pretty damn cocky right now!)
I went out and bought a pizza and then went to the bulk candy store and bought five different bags of any kind of craving I could imagine having that night. I called my ex to tell him how proud of me I was (he was too!) and then promptly unplugged my phones so that neither of those "dates" would get me on the phone and my impulsivity change my mind.
I crammed that pizza in my mouth....I ate a TON of chocolate...I read a new book....I fell asleep.
SOBER.
I am awake now, at my store, early for the first time on a Saturday as I don't have to pay for a baby-sitter today, sober, happy, RELIEVED!
This morning I saw that I had, indeed, missed a call from one of those guys...and KNEW I wouldn't have been strong enough last night to have not seen him. Taking the phone off the hook was a blessing.
I hope you all had a good night...and thank you all again for your patience and encouragement with me.
What did I do?
(hehe..sorry for dragging this out...but I'm feeling pretty damn cocky right now!)
I went out and bought a pizza and then went to the bulk candy store and bought five different bags of any kind of craving I could imagine having that night. I called my ex to tell him how proud of me I was (he was too!) and then promptly unplugged my phones so that neither of those "dates" would get me on the phone and my impulsivity change my mind.
I crammed that pizza in my mouth....I ate a TON of chocolate...I read a new book....I fell asleep.
SOBER.I am awake now, at my store, early for the first time on a Saturday as I don't have to pay for a baby-sitter today, sober, happy, RELIEVED!
This morning I saw that I had, indeed, missed a call from one of those guys...and KNEW I wouldn't have been strong enough last night to have not seen him. Taking the phone off the hook was a blessing.
I hope you all had a good night...and thank you all again for your patience and encouragement with me.
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Good for you! I'm curious...what did you do with the booze? Did you throw it away or take it back for a refund? The last time I did that (buy some whiskey and NOT drink it) I gave it away to someone who doesn't have a problem.
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Seriously, get a refund. There is no shame in standing in that same line, turning in your receipt, and getting your money back. If that's not possible, get rid of it anyway you can. It's a ticking time bomb.
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Wow, dancinggirl....I'm amazed at how you were able to overcome that close call. I don't think I'd ever be able to pull it off. Once I make the purchase it will be all over for me. Great job turning it around. Now get rid of that stuff! If your worried about the money(which I would be too) then do what has already been suggested and take it back for a refund. Having it in the house is a very bad idea but you already know that.
Once again, congrats on overcoming this event. And congrats on 42 days.
Once again, congrats on overcoming this event. And congrats on 42 days.
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Dancinggirl. Sobriety is all about you...that stuff is the enemy and enemies do not fight fair. I hope you get rid of it with as little contact with it as possible. We are all rooting for you. Add to your victory!!!
You can do it
You can do it
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I just looked on the LCBO website....was hoping they didn't make refunds....they do. I'm sorry, I just can't honestly say that I'll return it. I feel I dodged a bullet last night, but I'm still living with a working "gun" in the house and it keeps pointing at me. I still don't know if I won't drink. I feel last night was an odd experience by not drinking...but I don't know if I'm going to repeat it.
Sorry guys...but thanks for the support! I just don't know if I'm ready for all this.
Sorry guys...but thanks for the support! I just don't know if I'm ready for all this.
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You're story of buying boooze and not drinking it is one of great courage...
As far as dumping the booze you need to make it happen
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As far as dumping the booze you need to make it happen
YouTube - gloria estefan get on your feet
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