nogard

Keep going to the meetings it will get better.

Alone I can't with you I can.

LucyI

I've finally decided, and I am not going to go to meetings - for a few days. I've been on a low (for me) level of alcohol today, now I'm going to cut myself off and take the consequences.

Maybe fits, maybe not, definately shakes, sickness, spiders, sweats/shivers, IBS, nightmares, pain etc. I imagine most of you know.

Cross my heart and hope to live.

nogard

talk to your Doc first and maybe go to a detox, withdrawals from Alcohol can be very dangerous.

Kevin

LucyI

I know it is, and I know I'm physically dependant. My Dr will not prescribe drugs which relieve dts, I have asked and he has no solution. I will take my chances.

Aysha

nogard

how about going to a detox, being alone whil you detox is dangerous.

Kevin

LucyI

Wow, thats pretty!

Hi x

LucyI

Go to a detox where?

nogard

Ask your AA friends or phone the local AA Office their number will be in the phone book and they will tell you what is available and may well have more local advice. Getting well is about reaching out asking for help and then taking the help offered.

Kevin

LucyI

I asked six people tonight, the general response was; everyone has suffered this and worse, youre not that bad, just do it and keep coming to meetings.

adore79

Lucy, please at least keep a phone handy so you can call an ambulance if things get too rough.



:praying

nogard

ok but there not Dr's phone the central office and ask about detox's

LucyI

I've tried that sort of thing, only hospitals can do what I would need. Just looked up my units on drinkaware.co.uk, I think the people I have been meeting are underestimating the problem, because I look and act reasonably.

nogard

so you have phoned the aa central office and all the detox units and all the hospitals?

I got well when I got desperate and hopeless enough to reach out for help and accept it.

LucyI

I have done hospital detox, I know how to do that, however I am going to try myself, partly because it hurts my family and pets if I am admitted into hospital.

My parents suffer if I do that, they don't want to go through it again.

nogard

ok then, but how will your family be if you do it alone and your maimed or die?

LucyI

I'm not assuming these things, they have been said directly.

My family do wish I was better, but as I'm not... They have even said just kill yourself now and get it over with.

Withdrawl has begun to happen.

nogard

I don't want you to die or be in pain. please use the phone and get some help, ask a member to come around and be with you.

Kevin

nogard

All I can do is be here for you and pray for you.

LucyI

I can't contact a member I know, becuase its 1:22am here