WLDKATZ

WLDKATZ

Had a while to think about this sign..........too bad they just don't say no to drinking eh???? I kind of wish they would outlaw it again!:ghug

tanyapmc

Yes Pam WTG on 132 days. That is awesome!

What site did you use to do barb's name? I really like it.

WLDKATZ

Thank You, a friend of mine set me up with a program to use it but some I just found looking around..........and thank you hon!

tanyapmc

What are some of the sites names?

WLDKATZ

http://www.glittermaker.com/
http://www.glitterkiss.com/
http://www.123glitter.com/
these are just a few
lol

WLDKATZ

muhahahaha

tanyapmc

Thanks Pam. Those are too cool. MUAH

WLDKATZ

Any time sweetheart!

WLDKATZ

Okay so I have the very strongest urge to spill my guts!!!!!

1) Have this VERY good Friend(lives in Florida where I used too) he and I were both military bratts, so a very good relationship he and his wife feel they can talk to me about everything. Got a phone call from him, I am diabetic and I can't stay hard( ummmmmmm huh?). The doctor changed his meds he is now back down under 175 ect ect.......but his wife of 11 years is trying to leave him because he can't screw her.................ummmmmm ok go there is the door is what I told him......if she can't see past your package and you still have no children call it a sign from God right???

2) Got a call awhile ago from a g/f here in town can I come over sure....she shows up and she is also diabetic........she is having sexual problems as well............asks me what to do.......ummmmmmmmmmm nothing you two are just f**k buddies walk away.

3) while visiting with g/f got another call Pamm I need to talk......there is a bottle of vicodin in frount of me..........what do I do..............pour them down the drain and hit a meeting is what I tell her...............

so far today everyone has called me about their problems and how I am suppose to solve them, it is irritating as hell............what ever happened to people calling or writing and saying hello how are you and actually caring............this is so much about the me generations it makes me sick!!!!!

sorry needed to spill

Rowan

Well, on the plus side, it sounds like your friends know that they can come to you for compassion and support - so it sounds like you're a good friend, Pamm.

WLDKATZ

Thanks Ro Ro.......btw my godfather and I love the flashing eyes.....they all do........one just lost her son tonite to drugs and booze.....he is 18 and they just arrested him for attempted murder or some such............gonna be a long night here... He was one I had to wash my hands of because he always associated me as Aunt Pamm and I was cool as long as he drank at home ( used to live right behind me) so I am feeling somewhat confused on my feelings right now....:praying

gypsytears

Hi Pamm . What's up today? How ya doing? I care ! I like the gut spilling pic too lol.

WLDKATZ

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<Thanksssss>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>:g hug2

gypsytears

I'm off to watch some Dexter now... but I'll check in with ya tomorrow . Have a good night... try and get your rest now while you can Pamm.

WLDKATZ

Thanks Gypsy...................the warning is clear:praying

WLDKATZ

Today is another really bad one, woke up crying had another dream about Brent, I never ever thought I would EVER feel this way about another human being......it scares me to know that all of that love of the hopes dreams and everyother thing that I ever dreamed hope prayed and cried for will never bring him back. I miss my son my arms ache I miss him so damn much. I said something last night to my sister in law and it freaked me out really bad. I said I killed him, even thought I KNOW I did I know I have feelings of guilt and shame because I wasn't there for my child when he needed me the most......2 days and it will be 3 years, I can't forget, won't forget, everyday I wish I could forget.....then it wouldn't hurt so much.....Just wish I could get past it because it effects me here and now.
I desperately need to know within myself I am going to be a good mom, makes me wonder when most days I cannot even get out of bed, I need to be secure in this before I even consider bringing him home from the hospital......
Sorry all just having one of those panic attack days where nothing seems right, and I am doing nothing but wanting one hell of a stiff drink and a joint!!!! But that ain't right eaither......thanks for letting me vent:ghug2

WLDKATZ

damn thats a pitty party if I ever heard of one!

Rowan

I hope your day improves, Pamm. here's a cyber hug to hopefully make you feel better.

WLDKATZ

Thank You Ms Ro Ro, I need one really bad! ( do I need to tell you that the cable man is here and I am blubbering like a baby?)