bottoms and the newbie bus?
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Join Date: Jan 2007
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If I am honest k, then unfortunatly no, it's one of the reason's I haven't been on as much lately, I feel a bit of a fraud posting when I am not doing so great. I was sober for three weeks then I blew it, and since then all I keep managing is a couple of days. It has allways been my problem in the past, day 3, for some reason. After two days of not drinking the 3rd day is allways so hard and I have a real problem getting past it. I need to re-commit to quitting 
Sax
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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please keep posting Sax...it's the tough times when this place shines...look at me 
You can do it...I've seen you do it...go back and read your old posts if it helps....you don't have to live like this
keep checking in. I believe in you.
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You can do it...I've seen you do it...go back and read your old posts if it helps....you don't have to live like this
keep checking in. I believe in you.
D
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Saxony. You don't have to avoid sr just because you're slipping. Stick around and post more... get committed to committing.And yeah... look at Dee. He loves the attention plus I've heard he looks like Brad Pitt
. He's going through a pretty rough patch right now and he's still hanging in. You can do it too Sax... just have to try.
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Hi all, thank you all for your kind words and advice.
I was walking back from dropping my girls at school this monring and doing alot of thinking, I was trying to work out why I drink when I know that it's going to make me sick, when I possibly will do something I regret, or if I am more honest WILL do something I regret sooner or later, why I drink when I know that it most certainly will impact on what I can and can't acheive the following day. Like today for instance, it is a beautifull sunny september day and I am not going to be able to enjoy it because I feel sick, my anxiety is in full flow, I am shakey and generally feel like crap! Anyway it kinda dawned on me the reason I drink is because I am an alcoholic. You would have thought that i should have figured this out allready, but I have allways had a problem accepting it I guess as I don't allways drink everyday, never in the morning all the usually excuses. So it dawned on me that I AM an alcoholic despite these excuses and I don't want to live like this anymore, so I commited there and then to quit again, and accept the fact that I am an alcoholic and can't drink normally and if I want to live a productive life then I have to quit for good. Then I looked at the floor and there was a white feather, what more can I say
Later today I am going to write thoses lists someone suggested, (sorry can't remember who) actually sit down and write them rather than think what I would write because I know in a few days I am going to need them.
Sax
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I was walking back from dropping my girls at school this monring and doing alot of thinking, I was trying to work out why I drink when I know that it's going to make me sick, when I possibly will do something I regret, or if I am more honest WILL do something I regret sooner or later, why I drink when I know that it most certainly will impact on what I can and can't acheive the following day. Like today for instance, it is a beautifull sunny september day and I am not going to be able to enjoy it because I feel sick, my anxiety is in full flow, I am shakey and generally feel like crap! Anyway it kinda dawned on me the reason I drink is because I am an alcoholic. You would have thought that i should have figured this out allready, but I have allways had a problem accepting it I guess as I don't allways drink everyday, never in the morning all the usually excuses. So it dawned on me that I AM an alcoholic despite these excuses and I don't want to live like this anymore, so I commited there and then to quit again, and accept the fact that I am an alcoholic and can't drink normally and if I want to live a productive life then I have to quit for good. Then I looked at the floor and there was a white feather, what more can I say
Later today I am going to write thoses lists someone suggested, (sorry can't remember who) actually sit down and write them rather than think what I would write because I know in a few days I am going to need them.
Sax
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Hi Sax, thats the first step (no AA pun intended) to beating this, we admit we are alcoholics. REALLY admit it to ourselves, it might take time to sink in even though you think it already has it did with me.
White feather too!
White feather too!
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