wanted to be free of addiction, resources limited, I'm frustrated
Did you read Grouchos post in your other thread about dual diagnoses ? I think I mentioned something also.
Again, I'd say attack the alcoholism first. Chances are the depression/bo-polar/whatever will lessen or go away with recovery. It did for me, and many like me.
Anyway, I'm sorry you're so closed minded about trying AA. It's not what you think it is. Try the secular forums here, and they'll recomend SMART, LKifeRing and other programs.
As far as powerless. Try this. Buy a 1/2 gallon of your favorite hard liquor, and pour yourself 15 shots. Put them on the counter. Drink two, and only two shots. Leave the rest alone for the remainder of the day and tommorrow.
If your're an alcoholic, there is no choice. There will be no will power. You will drink the rest. Even if you happen to have enough will power to pass this "test" this time, I'll bet you'll be one miserable SOB until you can have that next drink.
Again, I'd say attack the alcoholism first. Chances are the depression/bo-polar/whatever will lessen or go away with recovery. It did for me, and many like me.
Anyway, I'm sorry you're so closed minded about trying AA. It's not what you think it is. Try the secular forums here, and they'll recomend SMART, LKifeRing and other programs.
As far as powerless. Try this. Buy a 1/2 gallon of your favorite hard liquor, and pour yourself 15 shots. Put them on the counter. Drink two, and only two shots. Leave the rest alone for the remainder of the day and tommorrow.
If your're an alcoholic, there is no choice. There will be no will power. You will drink the rest. Even if you happen to have enough will power to pass this "test" this time, I'll bet you'll be one miserable SOB until you can have that next drink.
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Dare I say that at times I think we are just throwaways? That it's still a "moral" deal?
I believe addiction is a brain disease. I don't know how it starts. Some of us are born with lower baselines of a given neurotransmitter, and a chemical gets us feeling normal. That is why psychiatry and addiction science belong together. Not some goofy outdated "let me confess all my sins to you, as I am a defect" 12 step program. Yikes
I pray we all find peace. And if one can find it in a 12 step program, more power to ya!
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Did you read Grouchos post in your other thread about dual diagnoses ? I think I mentioned something also.
Again, I'd say attack the alcoholism first. Chances are the depression/bo-polar/whatever will lessen or go away with recovery. It did for me, and many like me.
Anyway, I'm sorry you're so closed minded about trying AA. It's not what you think it is. Try the secular forums here, and they'll recomend SMART, LKifeRing and other programs.
As far as powerless. Try this. Buy a 1/2 gallon of your favorite hard liquor, and pour yourself 15 shots. Put them on the counter. Drink two, and only two shots. Leave the rest alone for the remainder of the day and tommorrow.
If your're an alcoholic, there is no choice. There will be no will power. You will drink the rest. Even if you happen to have enough will power to pass this "test" this time, I'll bet you'll be one miserable SOB until you can have that next drink.
Again, I'd say attack the alcoholism first. Chances are the depression/bo-polar/whatever will lessen or go away with recovery. It did for me, and many like me.
Anyway, I'm sorry you're so closed minded about trying AA. It's not what you think it is. Try the secular forums here, and they'll recomend SMART, LKifeRing and other programs.
As far as powerless. Try this. Buy a 1/2 gallon of your favorite hard liquor, and pour yourself 15 shots. Put them on the counter. Drink two, and only two shots. Leave the rest alone for the remainder of the day and tommorrow.
If your're an alcoholic, there is no choice. There will be no will power. You will drink the rest. Even if you happen to have enough will power to pass this "test" this time, I'll bet you'll be one miserable SOB until you can have that next drink.
And I have done the "drinking test." In fact, I even did the "Naltrexone" test. It's a drug which is an antagonist in the brain and prevents one from experiencing a euphoria. Guess what? One was enough. My drift is it's biochemical.
I went off another drug, as it made me nauseated. With chemicals, you do NOT want more than one, and I am not talking ANTABUSE. There is a way to alter neurochemistry to sidestep all of this. And it's not a God moral defect deal, it's a CHEMICAL deal. And you don't get euphoric, and it doesn't make you feel all good. It just makes you feel like...what's the sense...just like normal drinker.
But that's not why I'm here. Because the truth is I have bipolar 1 disorder and drinking does mitigate that. Therefore, I need to learn how to manage both, which is why I am looking for a recommendation. I can discuss science till the cows come home, but I still need to tend to my issues.
"let me confess all my sins to you, as I am a defect"
K....
Hi. Recovering bipolar alkie/addict here. I wasn't diagnosed
with BP until 10/06...well into this year of recovery. Wow.
I relapsed 6 times in the disease of alcoholism and addiction..
that includes a gambling addiction. I am finally finding a
balanced way of living that enables me to stay sober.
Feelings of peace and even happiness creep up on me and
seem to startle me at times.
My best to you!
P.S....
Isn't it weird that most BP meds are actually anticonvulsants?
Love,
:
IO
Hi. Recovering bipolar alkie/addict here. I wasn't diagnosed
with BP until 10/06...well into this year of recovery. Wow.
I relapsed 6 times in the disease of alcoholism and addiction..
that includes a gambling addiction. I am finally finding a
balanced way of living that enables me to stay sober.
Feelings of peace and even happiness creep up on me and
seem to startle me at times.
My best to you!
P.S....
Isn't it weird that most BP meds are actually anticonvulsants?
Love,
:
IO
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Now, if the first person learns that she or he can feel better, they will continue to do the behavior. Over TIME, a dependence can occur, as cellular changes do occur. For person B, they will just find the sleepiness unpleasant. But for person A, it alleviates a lot.
The more time that goes on, the more cellular changes result. Now, at some point all of us realize, gosh, I'm using this to do X, Y or Z. It's not good for me. At that point, many people who have the tools to love themselves might stop.
Or, better yet, I went to a seminar this weekend. For dependent persons (as in not independent -- on others, etc), addiction is a result of this dependence BEFORE breaking through the FEAR of having to become independent, leaving home, etc (and I'm not talking about money or other superficial stuff here).
As far as "anger?" I'm frustrated. Tell me, if it's really a "disease" and through no fault of your own, why does Alcoholics "Anonymous" exist?
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K....
Hi. Recovering bipolar alkie/addict here. I wasn't diagnosed
with BP until 10/06...well into this year of recovery. Wow.
I relapsed 6 times in the disease of alcoholism and addiction..
that includes a gambling addiction. I am finally finding a
balanced way of living that enables me to stay sober.
Feelings of peace and even happiness creep up on me and
seem to startle me at times.
My best to you!
P.S....
Isn't it weird that most BP meds are actually anticonvulsants?
Love,
:
IO
Hi. Recovering bipolar alkie/addict here. I wasn't diagnosed
with BP until 10/06...well into this year of recovery. Wow.
I relapsed 6 times in the disease of alcoholism and addiction..
that includes a gambling addiction. I am finally finding a
balanced way of living that enables me to stay sober.
Feelings of peace and even happiness creep up on me and
seem to startle me at times.
My best to you!
P.S....
Isn't it weird that most BP meds are actually anticonvulsants?
Love,
:
IO
Love to you too
K
Addiction is something that happens to a person wherein it wouldn't happen to another person
Alcohol is selectively addictive. And yes, cellular changes do occur in the alcoholics body. We actually adapt to the toxins, and our body relies on the alcohol as a source of energy.
I understand addiction.
It's a disease.
I needed to look at myself and where I was in my life. I needed to do some serious soul-searching and become completely honest with myself and others. I needed to find balance in my life. I work on that every day and I have peace in my life.
I do understand addiction.
It's a disease.
I needed to look at myself and where I was in my life. I needed to do some serious soul-searching and become completely honest with myself and others. I needed to find balance in my life. I work on that every day and I have peace in my life.
I do understand addiction.
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Unfortunately, all there is here is a bunch of people saying they owe the world an apology (not realizing their amends is due to themselves, for poisoning their bodies, first and foremost. It's particularly damaging for women, as by the time most women reach "AA" recovery, they already feel like peices of **** and don't need the added reinforcement. Here is where I recommend Women for Sobriety.) Anyone want any "real" AA history, BTW? It's not what you think.
And yes, we do need to work on our recovery daily, but not with the crap AA dishes out.
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I understand addiction.
It's a disease.
I needed to look at myself and where I was in my life. I needed to do some serious soul-searching and become completely honest with myself and others. I needed to find balance in my life. I work on that every day and I have peace in my life.
I do understand addiction.
It's a disease.
I needed to look at myself and where I was in my life. I needed to do some serious soul-searching and become completely honest with myself and others. I needed to find balance in my life. I work on that every day and I have peace in my life.
I do understand addiction.
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Of our Constitution ? (in case of those of you who don't know).
Look, I understand the AA defensiveness, but when dealing with an issue such as this, your personal feelings must be relegated to the wayside.
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Look, I understand if you are threatened, but it's exactly this kind of attitude that prevents addiction science from moving forward.
All I care about is that people are released from chemical addictions. If AA works for you, fine. If science works for you, fine. But we have much to learn. Things are still in their infancy and, as far as I am concerned, there is not room for petty squabbles, only information gathering. With this, some conflict with occur, and it shouldn't result in you invoking some "forum rules."
Do you realize at one time they use to imprison depressed people!?
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