Purplrks3647

Good for you Alpine! Yeah it does seem to wait until we let our guard down….thanks for the reminder!

Astro

The past is just that.....passed. We only have today, I try to stay focused on that, and whatever God has in store for the future will be a gift. And anytime I dwell wistfully and romance that "escape" I remember that it actually sucked, it really wasn't that good at all. "Play the tape through".

You got this. When that AV is screaming at you start screaming back, you are resilient and have recovery tools to get you through the rough patches. Big hugs!

Free2bme888

Alpine, I’m so sorry that ugly, lying 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 is trying to offer enticement to enter the hell of active addiction.

Please reach out anytime. I mean that.

🤓♥️

DeplorableDog

I'm a little late reading this Alpine but after every thing you faced this last year AV has to be easy to conquer. You and I both know that no matter what level of depression and anxiety we face alcohol will only make it worse.

VikingGF

Don’t fall for the lies and don’t debate. You don’t drink, life is hard enough without that mess!

That was my go to, short and sweet. Change the focus and the conversation, engage in something purposeful or enjoyable. Practice gratitude for TODAY. Forgive. Keep going.

I’m not trying to sound glib, you will of course have to deal with your feelings from your past, but don’t confuse the AV in that. It’s irrelevant and trying to be the whole show. Shut it down.

Excellent work on your sober time, Alpine. Hero status.

Alpine

Thanks all..I managed to kick the av to the curb..soooooo not worth it. I would rather deal with it annoying me than the after effects of drinking which is far far worse. NO Thanks.

Astro

Victory! Way to go, Alpine

VikingGF

Nice work, Alpine. Every time it gets easier.

Alpine

Mr A heads back out of town for the week tomorrow.. I Will stay strong and focused and not let that av get to me, right now it is pretty quiet..I need to start on some more projects to keep me busy....I like to be productive and drinking is the exact opposite.

Astro

You've got what I consider to be the perfect setting to get projects done, a home with a woodstove! I'm pretty sure that's my ideal visual of serenity

Alpine

You have that right Astro..plus the feel of the warmth and the sound of it..ahhhhh

Alpine

Last week was an anxiety riddled week with CT and MRI scans, meeting with oncologist and a dental procedure..Phew..Made it through without the dreaded av. I am so glad that is behind me and that I am not looking for that "escape" which of course never happens..only causes more issues and I certainly don't want or need that. Scans were clear so I am good to go for a few months until more scans. I will take it. Don't give up!!

Dee74

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Alysheba

Hang in there, Alpine. You are such a sweet, kind person. I know sometimes when you're feeling kind of tired and maybe even lonely, which happens to me, my AV can start really working on me. Good for you for hanging in there and working past it. PM me whenever you want or feel the need to. I understand I think kind of what you're going through. We really can't become complacent. Because that darn AV is really very wily and does seem to bother one when one is down energetically for whatever reason. Good job for posting and not giving in.
All my love and prayers to you, love bug!

Astro

Great praise!

Alpine

Aly, thanks so much my friend. I appreciate you and your kind words.

Alysheba

I appreciate you!

Purplrks3647

Saw in the 24 hour thread (thanks Cowboy)….that today is your bday

to our friend Alpine!

Astro

I hope your birthday was stupendous Alpine, and that you celebrated it by doing something special, peaceful, and soothing!

Alpine

Thanks! The weather was beautiful, sunny and in the 60s which is very unusual for this time of year. I enjoyed it by doing some yard work and sitting and enjoying hearing the birds.