The new Alpine - Part Four
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The new Alpine - Part Four
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From Part Three:
Sure, my emotions are on a roller coaster right now, but at least they are real and authentic and have a true basis vs alcohol driven. I need to go into this clear headed..This is what I do have control over the freedom to do.
Yes, yes, yesssss!! Ain't it great when we know what we can control and what we can't? For me, that's the real miracle of sobriety, knowing what is within my circle of control.
Keeping you in my prayers...
Sure, my emotions are on a roller coaster right now, but at least they are real and authentic and have a true basis vs alcohol driven. I need to go into this clear headed..This is what I do have control over the freedom to do.
Yes, yes, yesssss!! Ain't it great when we know what we can control and what we can't? For me, that's the real miracle of sobriety, knowing what is within my circle of control.
Keeping you in my prayers...
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Thanks Astro and Fish. And as for keeping my thread alive, maybe I just talk too much..lol. Believe it or not, I am a very shy person and do not typically talk much. I think I do it here to get things of mind, talk it out so to speak which has helped me when becoming sober and is now helping me in the unplanned journey. I do hope some of my words may help at least one person, because that is also a goal of mine. I know it will be an unseen goal which is fine...I have always been one to reach out and help others not matter what.
Onwards!
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I do hope some of my words may help at least one person, because that is also a goal of mine. I know it will be an unseen goal which is fine...I have always been one to reach out and help others not matter what.
Like sobriety, climbing to the top of the mountain requires climbing implements, recovery takes tools too.
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Thanks all! I appreciate it. Heading in tomorrow morning for port placement then admitted to hospital the next day. I am starting to detach a bit from this whole process..Hard to explain, I did it when I did the radiation, pretty much treated it as a job so to speak. This will take work, like becoming sober, I could not run away from it because it would not have helped. I needed to face it like a job and it was something that needed to be done and took work Now, on to the cancer..I need to realize I need to do things that I don't want to, but in the end I am hoping for great results. Just keep plugging away.
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I don't think I know of anyone who's approached getting a chemo port without some fear, trepidation, or nervousness. I am really impressed that you're able to detach from it, that takes a lot of courage and I appreciate your grace in your approach to it. We never really know at the time who will be impacted by our experience and our words, but I'm sure that someone will read yours and it will strengthen them through a similar experience in the future.
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Just checking in to say thanks for the kind words and support. As I was going through the process today I was thinking about a lot of you..as many as my little head could remember and imaging you were in the room with me, or at least the waiting room which helped. It takes a team effort right? I used to be a solo person..I can do all on my own, I don't need help..Initially that was how I approached becoming sober. I took the stubborn approach in that, first..nothing is wrong and I can stop when I want to , and second..I can do it on my own. Well, both number one and number two were wrong and I am grateful I found that out with time.
The procedure went well, not very comfortable, but that was to be expected. On to the next step tomorrow.
The procedure went well, not very comfortable, but that was to be expected. On to the next step tomorrow.
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