VikingGF

Stay the course, Thrill. Guy Smiley would want you to. Now I need to go find some Guy S videos on YouTube.

Hevyn

238 - wonderful!
Thrill - it never takes us where we think it will.

Thrillhou

Day 239. Still hanging in there. Didn't drink yesterday despite temptations. I'm learning that I am kind of a fraud who was pink clouding and now the cloud is gone. And I considered being an addict counselor. Pssh. Can't even counsel myself let alone somebody else.

JamesW

Well done for making it through yesterday, try not to beat yourself up mate.

Hevyn

Thrill - so proud of you for not caving - and for 239 sober days.

Thrillhou

Day 240. It's getting more difficult recently. It's like Pac-Man where the ghosts get faster and the game gets harder the longer you survive. If I had access to pills or even stuff I've never done before it's likely I'd take them TBH. The friendlessness is keeping the streak going. This might get removed and banned. Just being honest though. When I lie, people yell at me for lying. When I actually tell the truth, people still get mad at me.

JamesW

Glad you are holding on man, the bad days will pass, 240 days is brilliant.

Hevyn

Thrill - It takes a lot to stay off alcohol & pills, but you're doing it. Give yourself some credit.
240 days is fantastic.

Thrillhou

If you guys are sick of the Garfield and Guy Smiley jokes you are in luck. I don't even feel like writing crappy jokes anymore so there will be less of them. Too sullen and fiending (well, more than usual).

Thrillhou

Day 241. The arcade game is still going and the high score keeps increasing. What will the final score be? The current Vegas line is 250. It's gone down quite a bit, Vegas knows I'm starting to go into basehead mode again.

JamesW

Hang in there Thrill, you've got people rooting for you.

Hevyn

241 - how great.
James is right, Thrill - we are rooting for you & we care.

Free2bme888

241🎏🪅🎉🎊🪄❤️

Thrillhou

Day 242. I've still stayed the course. My tires are falling off and my fuel is low, but I'm on the course technically. I do not have any intention of drinking alcohol any time soon (or ever?). It just makes me sick and makes me sleep till 2 pm. Other stuff might be on the table pending availability.

Dee74

Apart from journalling here, what are you doing to correct the slide TH?

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Thrillhou

Meetings, therapy, medicine. I'm backsliding a bit, but I'm still at C-/D+ range instead of F like before. C- is about the best I can hope for so it's good. I'm crazy as hell I mean read some of the stuff I post holy cow.

Hevyn

242! Congrats, Thrill.
So proud of you for staying the course, despite the challenges.

Thrillhou

Day 243. Still haven't freebased cocaine with tinfoil and a paper towel tube. I am too much of a gentleman for that.

JamesW

Glad you're still with us Thrill, and retaining those all important standards lol.

Thrillhou

Job interview tomorrow at Petsmart. Moving on up in the world.