JamesW

Keep us posted Thrill.

Thrillhou

Since this website is only for sober people I should probably go. It certainly won't help anyone here to have me anymore.

Hevyn

You don't have to give in to this, Thrill. You worked hard for your sobriety.

Thrillhou

Day 0. I forgot to take my belt off when I put a pair of jeans in the wash. I intended to watch "Yes, Dear" but even in the state I was in I could not tolerate it so I did not.

Free2bme888

Come back when you are ready 🤓❤️

JamesW

Good to see you post today, what's happening Thrill ?

Thrillhou

OK. See you in 12 years if I'm not dead. This thread is gonna get "locked" probably.

Hevyn

We care about you, Thrill. Despite what you may think. Please don't self destruct.

Thrillhou

Day 0. Work is going ok so far. Still smoking like Seymour Skinner's oven when he burnt the pot roast. Eventually I'll probably drink again. I said I wouldn't, but I lie I guess. This thread will get locked.

Dee74

when the car you're in is in a spin it makes no sense to take both hands off the wheel TH.
You can TOTALLY pull out of this skid - if you want to?

D

JamesW

Really glad you posted, and the job is going ok. Smoking doesn't necessarily mean you have to drink again, after all alcohol doesn't really do you any favours.

Not sure why your thread would be locked, this period is still part of your journey. I for one would miss your posts, they really have helped me these 81 days.

Thrillhou

It's now the offseason as well, forgot to mention. This is always a time when depression and SUD go particularly haywire.

Thrillhou

Day 0. It's nice not having to worry about resentments anymore. I can get resent whatever the hell I want. That was so annoying having to keep track of that.

When I retire at night: Was I resentful? Was I selfish? Was I dishonest? Was I afraid?

Yes. And it doesn't matter because I don't have to do that crap anymore.

JamesW

Hope the job's going well.

Thrillhou

Surprisingly, yes. I guess I have a talent for climbing up rolling stairs and organizing grout.

JamesW

lol !
Endless possibilities for future jokes.

JamesW

Hope you and the parakeets are holding up, and being around new people all day isn't too stressful.

Hevyn

Thinking of you, Thrill. Hope you're ok.

Thrillhou

I am still ok and the job is still ok. Right now I'm just rocking the ganja, so obviously I'm not in danger.

Thrillhou

Day 0. Job is still cool. I now know how to use that lifty machine that you use to reach high ledges. I'm going to start drinking again. The main reason I quit was hypochondria about near-immanent death. After going to AA and seeing how many people do it for 50 years I feel better. I'm making enough money now where eventually I'll be able to find an apartment and be alone. Then nothings gonna stop me. No one to yell at me and hide from.