Purplrks3647

Checking in ~ started having those thoughts after work, passing a restaurant "Wish I could stop there and just get drunk" ~ but I didn't

I've been practicing urge surfing & "staying on top of the wave" once the thoughts start up, rather than drowning in them and giving in....so far so good...

Anyone else excited for the Motley Crue movie "The Dirt"? Coming out tomorrow on Netflix

LillianGish

Good for you on the sleep! I couldn’t fall asleep until 3 am and then I woke up at 7 am. Back to anxiety once I stopped taking anti anxiety pill at night. Funny how that happens. Oncologist said I didn’t need it once chemo was over.

Guess radiation shouldn’t be a cause of anxiety? Try it sometime and see how carefree you feel! Today I had CT scan with radiation to map out where a tumor used to be in my body and then for desert I had targeted radiation to kill cancer. Hope it works but why should I worry?! La tee da how fun this is!!

Just ranting. Lack of sleep causing some grouchies.

I know I need to learn to deal with a different life now without medication help but jeez...too soon.

Still sober though and yeah, it’s pretty darn awesome. Suze thank you for the shout out on the 24 hour thread. Much love ❤️

venuscat

(((Lillian))) not fun love ♥

Purplrks3647

More congrats on your 7 months Lillian ~ and major kudos for how you handle all of this....hope you get some good sleep from now on

PhoenixJ

Lill- my stuff is in a different league to yours, but one thing, perhaps is common.

Having the surgical procedures done, the photographing of my fried flesh for 'progress', all these things really are not normal- as in normal life stuff.
To the people on the Burns Unit- life threatening trauma, adrenaline- are normal.

So when I go there- I have to phase myself, almost into a different reality....
because it feels so surreal going back into normal life.
Such as the surgeon tell me he got a standing ovation at an international conference- showing my body images- for his work (well deserved), then I returned to living in a horrible boarding house where I was very unwell.

I think you might find the same- I get anxiety every time I go to that unit- just because.

Support to you.

Bobbieka

7 months! Yay! I mean, can't you just tell them you need the meds? They give meds to anyone for anything. Until you need it. Hugs and prayers, Lillian. This sucks.

You too, PHX. hugs to you. Not to the standing ovation guy.

Good job, Purple.

Good evening, Suze.

CaseyW

My internet has been wonky all day but other than that it's been a nice day off.

Congrats on 7 months, Lillian!

Grateful to be going to bed sober. Have a nice day, Aussies!

Purplrks3647

Hi class ~ just checking in....Friday morning startin' fluid

venuscat

Grumble grumble in a lot of pain with a medical issue and the otc meds hurt my tummy so badly I had to try a different one (otc) and I am kind of shocked. I am knocked on my butt by this stuff....about to look it up in more detail. I mean, it's FANTASTIC having this pain gone....it was worse than my bone tumors, worse than when my leg got bitten to the bone years ago... but it makes me spacey I think and that is not OK for someone in recovery....not for me for sure.

CaseyW

Hope you feel better, venuscat.

Off work again today. Gotta be careful. Have a great day, Marchers!

Bobbieka

Feel better Suze.

Have a great day, class!

Stick close, Casey, we got your back.

Purplrks3647

(((Suze))) Hope you're feeling better

Just watched the Motley Crue movie....with MOM! Let's just say it has everything you would expect to be in a movie about them.....I warned her ahead of time....good thing she was a good sport about it.....at one point she said "I can't believe they're still alive!"

(And I can't believe I watched it sober and didn't really get triggered from it....) Home now and ready to chill.....Smart online meeting in a little while

CaseyW

Definitely gonna watch that movie later, Purps. But it's bedtime early for me tonight. Gotta be up stupid early, though not as stupid early as your usual stupid early.

Been a nice day off. Grateful to be going to bed sober.

Purplrks3647

Yeah I do get up pretty stupid early....gonna try and wind down for the night, maybe sleep in 'til 6 tomorrow!

Dee74

(((Lillian)))

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PhoenixJ

prayers Suze and lill and for that matter- EVERYONE

Dee74

apologies - hope you feel better soon too Suze

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LillianGish

Thank you for this post. You are spot on in how it feels. It is a different reality. Wisdom imparted to me to change my perspective...a gift.

And support to you too. Anxiety is an awful feeling. The picture of him getting an ovation, is surreal.

Speaking of anxiety...didn’t sleep a wink last night again. After research, I think I’m going through withdrawals from the Ativan. Rebound symptoms are the return of enhanced symptoms, like insomnia or anxiety, that led the person to start taking Ativan in the first place. Symptoms come back worse than before you started taking the darn pill. Lasts only a few days. This pill really helped me thru the hard part of treatment but it is time for it to be stopped. Sorry for my grouchy outburst.

The Motley Crue movie sounds interesting!!

Suze, hope you’re ok. I hear ya on the medication! Thinking of you.

Early birds...hope you had a great day!

Purplrks3647

(((HUGS to everyone))).....and as the quote states: "When you feel lousy, Puppy Therapy is indicated"

Happy National Puppy Day! Today on Twitter the Washington Capitals are announcing something called the "Stanley Pup" ~ Has anyone heard of it? It looks like Puppy Bowl with hockey instead of football.....OMG

venuscat

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