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Sobersophie don't apologise for "bringing the thread down". You're not! We're all here for each other and we all need each others help and support, and we all need somewhere to empty our heads.

A day off will be great. Enjoy.

Zighoul

Hello class
Just flopped down onto our love seat. Work is getting wild now (springtime at a greenhouse) and I'm feeling 2x my age tonight. It's going to be fantastic plowing thru the busy season this year with zero hangovers though. Last year was a bit of a mess.
Gonna enjoy the bright days a lot more I think 😎
Adios & take care everyone!
✌💚💪
-Z

listae

Congratulations H379 for super parenting! It's an accomplishment for both your son and you!

Sobersophie: I just found out last week that I was diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder (GAD). Because I thought I was more of the depressive type, I had no idea that I suffered from anxiety that interfered with my daily functioning.

I drank for a million reasons but now I realize one of the main reasons was to self-medicate and numb my anxiety. I'm now doing some exercises that my counselor introduced me to; so, you shouldn't beat up on yourself. Many of us suffer from anxiety in daily life.

I'm glad you felt comfortable sharing. Rather than bringing me down, it actually helped me feel like someone else understood.

Good night group!

H379

Sophie, hope you have a better day tomorrow.

SBTS, thanks for reminding me to Journal. I still need to document what all went wrong when I knowingly took the drink.

Quite day at work. Busy evening g with kids. Kitchen was empty as I had been out past weekend. After the boys finished with homework took them grocery shopping, cooked, did some paper work to wrap up stuff with my wife. Tons more remaining.

Going with the boys for a Cub Scout Camp this weekend. Did shopping for that on Amazon.

I am late by an hour to bed.

Good night all.

sobersophie

Thank you all for your supportive words it's not easy and I have a tendency to be very down on myself. I'm going to make scones. That's self care, right?

Love to you all x

H379

Sophie, hope you are feeling better today. How did the scones turn out. I think scones and a good cup tea is a nice way to make oneself feel better. Have a great day.

Zighoul

Scones & self care go hand in hand Sophie
Hope you feel better!

listae

I had a hard day today as the pick cloud faded a bit. Going to my workplace is a major trigger, especially when co-workers look at you with pity because they know you've lost your job. Random people come up to me and want to give me a hug. I don't want to be hugged.

I cam home and cried like a baby: What did I do? Why did I sabotage my career? I had the most cushy job: why did I ruin a perfectly good opportunity?

I know self-blame leads me to drink but I'm feeling very sad, depressed today.

Dee74

do you know for sure you've lost your job Listae?

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listae

Yes, Dee. I have one year to find a job in a field without many opportunities.

Zighoul

Sorry listae
Wishing you well! I hope you find some work you enjoy soon if you can't fix things there. It's good to know we don't have to feel like that anymore though. I'm up to my eyeballs in bills and keep thinking how much $ I'd have right now if I hadn't been drinking all these years. Sigh, whatever

Take care everyone!
✌💚💪
-Z

listae

That is a good point Zighoul

H379

Wish you all the best Listae. You have a year and it's a long time to find a new job and / or to fix the situation in the current job.

Drinking won't help in anyway. Staying positive is the best way out.

Dee74

new thread here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-6-a.html (Class of January 2019 part 6)
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