Class of March 2016 Part 75
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Hope everyone had an awesome Christmas!!
A nice day here, and getting ready to head back east tomorrow for a week to visit family, go to a wedding and do the New Year's thing. I'm thinking it will be a lot to handle, and I'm definitely a little shaky at the moment.
The extended time off from work gives my brain time to wander - to places it shouldn't go. I've been keeping busy all day - preparing food, doing laundry, a couple of long walks. I've spent some time on here, and ran through a few recovery podcasts. It's funny that when my AV visits, it's still at roughly the same time of day - starts around 4:00pm .... if I can make it until 7:00pm I think I am good. Posting here to get these dumb thoughts out of my head.
I've played the tape forward. I know there is nothing good that will happen - only bad. I guess the war is not over. I am ready, though.
A nice day here, and getting ready to head back east tomorrow for a week to visit family, go to a wedding and do the New Year's thing. I'm thinking it will be a lot to handle, and I'm definitely a little shaky at the moment.
The extended time off from work gives my brain time to wander - to places it shouldn't go. I've been keeping busy all day - preparing food, doing laundry, a couple of long walks. I've spent some time on here, and ran through a few recovery podcasts. It's funny that when my AV visits, it's still at roughly the same time of day - starts around 4:00pm .... if I can make it until 7:00pm I think I am good. Posting here to get these dumb thoughts out of my head.
I've played the tape forward. I know there is nothing good that will happen - only bad. I guess the war is not over. I am ready, though.
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re-read some old posts MITA. The decision to drink again is a pretty loaded one (no pun intended).
Its not a decision I'd make lightly - and I'd remember that the AV always lies. The promise is never the result.
D
Its not a decision I'd make lightly - and I'd remember that the AV always lies. The promise is never the result.
D
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Merry Christmas, Dear Purps.
Thanks all for the words of support, encouragement and clear thinking. I am doing better now. I know these things don't last long - sometimes they are mild and other times quite a bit stronger. I realize I've never gone a significant amount of time continuously sober - really, right now I am about at my historical best - but you'd think after so many years of trying to get it right I wouldn't have to come here whining like a little boy who needs his mommy when the AV shows up.
Still, I'm glad I did
I'll be traveling with a clear head and no shame or remorse tomorrow.
I'm being good, BBG!!
Thanks all for the words of support, encouragement and clear thinking. I am doing better now. I know these things don't last long - sometimes they are mild and other times quite a bit stronger. I realize I've never gone a significant amount of time continuously sober - really, right now I am about at my historical best - but you'd think after so many years of trying to get it right I wouldn't have to come here whining like a little boy who needs his mommy when the AV shows up.
Still, I'm glad I did
I'll be traveling with a clear head and no shame or remorse tomorrow.
I'm being good, BBG!!
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Happy posts.
Sober Marchies.....very nice.
We did it guys.....and I think you should be as whiny as you want to be when the AV shows up dear MITA.... 
I am freezing and I want to be in Australia.
Coffee? xx
Sober Marchies.....very nice.
We did it guys.....and I think you should be as whiny as you want to be when the AV shows up dear MITA....
I am freezing and I want to be in Australia.
Coffee? xx
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Gorgeous place for a meeting, PHX. How was it with your relatives?
MITA - safe travels. Great job yesterday.
Hey Lillian, Purps, BBG, Suze and Dee.
Hi - 13th!
Have a great day everyone. I am back at work. It will be really quiet in my office today.
MITA - safe travels. Great job yesterday.
Hey Lillian, Purps, BBG, Suze and Dee.
Hi - 13th!
Have a great day everyone. I am back at work. It will be really quiet in my office today.
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That is a beautiful place in the picture PJ! I hope you had a nice meal with your family, but even if not, I hope you are doing ok anyway. I was just thinking about you and sending good thoughts.
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Originally Posted by Bobbieka 
How was your first Christmas, Suze?
Plus we had a great sleep....so that was good.
Originally Posted by LillianGish
That is a beautiful place in the picture PJ! I hope you had a nice meal with your family, but even if not, I hope you are doing ok anyway. I was just thinking about you and sending good thoughts.
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You saw it already I think Bobbie love in Kathy's thread xx
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