Dee74

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https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-407-a-20.html (24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 407)

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Dee74

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TheToddman

Thanks, D.

24 more for me...

Kaneda8888

Checking in for 24.

kevlarsjal2

Thanks Venus you say such lovely things...
I do like who I am, I consider myself a caring, friendly and helpful person. But when I hear so much that people think of me as selfish, inconsiderate, codependent or not assertive enough, I worry that I am mistaken about myself and that I'm as deluded about it like I was about my drinking
And I am not happy with my life. I know there was a lot of things happening lately so I guess to a certain degree it is normal to not be my happiest these days. But this too makes me worry that I approach life in the wrong way. Maybe this will get better once I have healed a bit more physically and emotionally. Thanks for your encouragement. Love you!

Thank you too erfra! It won't be too much new stuff to explore, it's just outside the city I live It will be 2 days of relaxing by the pool, doing some sports and going for some walks if my leg allows it and look at old castles. And not having to bother with cooking, cleaning or anything really.

venuscat

♥ This is a list of everyone who posted their commitment to stay sober in the last
24 hours: 8 pm EDT ~ 7.59 pm EDT.

It is awesome to have every single one of you here with us! ♥

1newcreation
abcowboy
Atlast9999
aussieblue
Awake61
Babs1234
badgerden
bandicoot2
BarbieKen
Ben123
BringingBackB
Bubovski
Canadian Koala
CeeFarro
ChloeRose63
Coldfusion
CrossYourHeart
Daisybelle
Dee74
Delilah1
Dreamcatcher
erfra7
Free2bme888
ForMe247
FormerBeerLover
Gabe1980
gatorman
Goat
Gilmer
goodbyeevan
goose333
gypsytears
Hats
Hevyn
Jack16
joandmelandhan
John65
jsm273
julietUK
Kaneda8888
kenton
kevlarsjal2
KeyofC
Kris47
least
LillianGish
lilymaz
Lostmyoffswitch
LoveHateWhine
lyddie
Mags1
Marcutah1
Minion09
Neoo
Nic233
nmd
Nonfiction1
ODAATCAT
Patterson
PhoenixJ
Plenny
Purplrks3647
Quincy
quitter62
Rainman1
Rar
RedBerryJuniper
Saskia
ShenzyT
shortstop81
SnoozyQ
Snufkin
soberista
SoberLeigh
stargazer016
StartAnew68
StartingOverNW
Sunflower79
Sunflowerlife
Sweetpeacan
Tang
tgirl
TheToddman
theVman31
time2LLL60
Tinker B
tomls
vanaprastha
venuscat
VikingGF
Vinificent
WaterOx
WeaverBird
whopper
Willow68
wiscsober
xpander76
Yixi
yukonm
Zanna
zeppodog
zoeydog
Onward together! ♥

venuscat

This is for you dear kev ....you are gold girl. xx♥♥♥

Willow00

24 please, We had a private family gathering for Dad at the cemetery yesterday. Exactly 1 week since my Mum’s funeral. Dad’s memorial service is tomorrow.

I had major a AV attack from sideways yesterday, I was out with family getting stuff organised for Dad’s public service and we spontaneously went into a bottle shop that was on our way. I walked along the aisles of wines and the AV was trying to persuade me to buy a lovely bottle of red or two as I have been so good not drinking through a few really really difficult weeks and surely it’s fine to relax with a lovely glass of red.... It was so hard to walk out empty handed but I did. And later when there was red and white wine and beer being drunk around the dinner table I had another cup of tea.

I was feeling really sorry for myself and just want this all to go away and not be happening and my parents to still be here, but I know that’s not possible. So I went to bed and looked through all the photos we put together for Mum’s funeral service and I told her I loved her. And I’m feeling guilty that most of my tears have been and still are for Mum and I haven’t really cried properly for my Dad yet apart from my tears yesterday when I saw his coffin but I think those tears were intermingled with tears for Mum, I’m still crying for my dear cherished Mumma who has always been the centre of my world. I know she’s now with God but I miss her so very much. I’m so sad for my Dad too and I know I need to grieve for him too but I haven’t gotten through grieving for Mum and it’s all jumbled together.

I know I’m not processing my thoughts properly and I know I don’t need to feel guilty and nothing was my fault, my parents were both in their late 80s with chronic and serious health problems but I do. I keep thinking maybe I shouldn’t have taken Mum on holiday to see Dad and maybe she would’ve not got sick and what if I’d taken Mum to hospital sooner, and what if....etc.??? I ate five chocolate chip cookies but could have easily eaten another 20.... But somehow I didn’t drink.

I just want to fall asleep and not have to deal with all of this. It’s so tempting sometimes to find oblivion in a bottle but I know the next day will be horrible and I am choosing not to go down that road . One day at a time. 24 hours please. I will not drink today. Love you all, thanks for being here ❤️

venuscat

Oh my dear sweet lovely friend.....one day you will be able to re-read this post and see the love and honour that you gave to your dad today....to both of your parents.

Feeling that pain and walking with it.....feeling the sadness and seeing the photos....feeling it all because there was only tea on board.....these are the greatest gifts you could give your parents. This is the greatest way you can honour them, and you are.

Feeling this pain....being a witness honey ~ a feeling, thinking witness....is the greatest way we can honour our loved ones....we feel this horrendous pain, but we get to take this day with us, these memories with us and they keep us strong. They make us proud. They make us remember who we truly are.

You are a wonderful woman....I am proud to know you and call you my friend.
Onwards. Together. Always. ♥♥♥♥♥

Willow00

Thank you my dear friend ❤️❤️❤️

kevlarsjal2

Willow you're being amazingly strong these days and weeks. It's impressive! You are impressive! You're doing so well, dealing with all this grief and sadness and then on top of that not listening to your AV but thinking things through, focusing on what's best for your in the long run.

One thing that I used to do when I was glued to the wine aisles was to think of ANYTHING that I really wanted from the shop that was not booze and treat myself to that instead. Fancy chocolates, some fresh sushi, a fancy rare tea, a sugary soda drink I normally wouldn't buy for myself, those italian handmade biscuits that are clearly overpriced but always look so good... Just anything that I can carry home with me and look forward to, so I don't feel like I went home with empty hands

kevlarsjal2

Thanks you're wonderful Venus! Coldplay songs always make me so teary but they are beautiful...

I was just thinking, maybe I need to find more people to surround myself with who don't just see problems in me or think that everything I do is just to hurt or attack them in some twisted way. But people who also see my good qualities and appreciate them.

venuscat

Oh yes, I think so honey....
Surround yourself with people who feel your glow and shine for you.... ♥

least

I was sober in CA and now sober back home in Ohio. Another day sober for me, please.

IcedVoVo

24 and to sleep.
Love

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Quincy

May I please have another 24 hours with a side of teamwork? Thank you.

BarbieKen

Hi,
I'm checking in for my next 24, thanks to my HP, AA, & the SR Family!
Bobbi

nmd

24

Thanks for the congrats and congrats to my felloe milestoners :-)

LillianGish

My favorite time in the evening. Deep breathing, looking at the moon in the sky...and committing to a better life.

Another 24 hours please.

May the moon find you all and shine on your peace.
Lillian

Vinificent

22:57 EDT and another 24 for me!