Originally Posted by erfra7

My recovery
must came
first so that
everything
I love in life
does Not have to came last.

my financial life good, my family relationship excellent, my work life good, I have food, shelter, car ......them why I feel empty and alone specially at night time ....with a broken heart that I can't put together


please God give me another 24 hrs. of sober life......

Originally Posted by venuscat

I don't know WaterOx.....I am proud of you, but not so sure about your date.
If someone said that to me, that they wouldn't be drinking, I would say OK, so how about we meet for lunch instead? Or a coffee?

I just hope that she is a caring person is all.

And amazing stuff....drinking soda through that.
I imagine the dating will get easier....and I hope you find someone wonderful. ♥

Originally Posted by venuscat

I know love.....I really do.

You are a wonderful man and the right woman will come along. Really. ♥♥♥

Originally Posted by BarbieKen

Hi,
I've been sick since coming back from vacation, but today I felt good enough to help my Sponsor with her yard sale. The cough will continue, what's new?! Then it's time for my annual flu shot. Which is fine with me ... :-D
Of course, I'm in for another 24.
Bobbi

Originally Posted by kenton

Just woke up after the oddest dream. I was in my car but I wasn't driving ... I never saw the face of the person driving. I was sitting in the passenger seat and we were travelling along this long, winding road. The road was occasionally bumpy and sometimes there was a bit of traffic but it was OK. ... we were moving forward towards wherever we needed to be. But the driver kept getting impatient and kept saying that if we veered off and took toll roads, we'd get to our destination quicker. So we veered off and the toll was extortionate but I paid it and then we ended up completely lost. The toll road didn't seem to go anywhere ... so we took ages to get back onto the long, winding, steady road and we journeyed on that for a while before the driver seemed to forget how expensive and useless the toll road had been and started looking for another toll road 'shortcut'.

It's unusual for me to remember dreams so clearly and I don't need to be Einstein to work this one out. The mysterious driver is my AV. The long, winding, sometimes-bumpy road is sobriety and those toll road 'shortcuts' represent alcohol. When I was drinking I used to turn up at parties and drink a couple of drinks really quick..... searching for a shortcut through shyness and social anxiety. I wanted to become confident, witty and sparkly and I wanted to become it NOW. But the problem was .... I may have become confident, witty and sparkly for about 2 minutes but then I became obnoxious, annoying and drunk.

Similarly, whenever I felt any emotion that made me uneasy, I would take a shortcut to feeling OK again. So I would drink to drown out the emotion but the emotion never went away .... instead it would resurface at an inexplicable time and be expressed in a disproportionate manner ... explains why I often ended up drunk and crying with absolutely no idea of the real reason behind the tears.

And the toll I paid for these 'shortcuts'? Eye watering. Much better to stay on the long, winding road. All those bumps are only bumps and on this road I'm actually travelling somewhere.

Love to everyone and 24 more for me please xxxx

Originally Posted by venuscat

♥ This is a list of everyone who posted their commitment to stay sober in the last
24 hours: 8 pm EDT ~ 7.59 pm EDT.

It is awesome to have every single one of you here with us! ♥

1newcreation
abcowboy
Atlast9999
aussieblue
Awake61
Babs1234
badgerden
bandicoot2
BarbieKen
Ben123
BringingBackB
Bubovski
Canadian Koala
CeeFarro
ChloeRose63
Coldfusion
CrossYourHeart
Daisybelle
Dee74
Delilah1
Dreamcatcher
erfra7
EternalNow
Finalround
Free2bme888
ForMe247
FormerBeerLover
Gabe1980
gatorman
Goat
Gilmer
goodbyeevan
goose333
gypsytears
Hats
Hevyn
Jack16
joandmelandhan
John65
jsm273
julietUK
Kaneda8888
kenton
kevlarsjal2
KeyofC
Kris47
least
LillianGish
lilymaz
Lostmyoffswitch
LoveHateWhine
Lulubread
lyddie
Mags1
Marcutah1
Minion09
Neoo
Nic233
nmd
Nonfiction1
ODAATCAT
Patterson
PhoenixJ
Plenny
Purplrks3647
Quincy
quitter62
Rainman1
Rar
RedBerryJuniper
Saskia
ShenzyT
shortstop81
Snufkin
soberista
SoberLeigh
stargazer016
StartAnew68
StartingOverNW
Sunflower79
Sunflowerlife
Sweetpeacan
Tang
tgirl
TheToddman
theVman31
time2LLL60
Tinker B
tomls
vanaprastha
venuscat
VikingGF
Vinificent
WaterOx
WeaverBird
whopper
Willow68
wiscsober
xpander76
Yixi
yukonm
Zanna
zeppodog
zoeydog
Onward together! ♥

Originally Posted by venuscat

I do believe we have our awesome funny Goat back.... ♥

Originally Posted by WaterOx

In fairness, she was the one who offered to meet me for coffee/tea more than a couple of times after I told her I wasn't drinking. There wasn't any place open by 8pm, so we were kinda out of luck. What's more is I told her it's ok if she wanted to drink, and I also didn't fully disclose "I have a problem". I just acted nonchalant about it as though I was taking a break for health reasons.


I'm still a bit on the learning curve here when it comes to what's best to do in life when I'm not drinking. In all honesty, I wasn't sure I wouldn't drink.

Originally Posted by Neoo

Early night still full of the flu

Originally Posted by venuscat

That was your post, so I didn't want to quote and add this....sorry, not awake yet, I think you will understand....Willow darling, I feel the same, the exact same way. Many of the people I am close to here know that losing my mum, and dad changed me profoundly. I honour them every day.

This is my favourite picture from the 60s, I think....I may well not have been born yet.



(Nick will tell you that is my exact smile....well I think so.....).

Originally Posted by venuscat

Yes Sunny darling, I AM FEELING SO SO MUCH BETTER....PJ could hear on the phone that my lungs are so much better....never hurts to hear stuff like that from a nurse.

Can't wait to hear more about your weekend!! ♥

Hope you feel better tomorrow dearest Neoo. Many hugs. ♥♥

Originally Posted by erfra7

My recovery
must came
first so that
everything
I love in life
does Not have to came last.

my financial life good, my family relationship excellent, my work life good, I have food, shelter, car ......them why I feel empty and alone specially at night time ....with a broken heart that I can't put together


please God give me another 24 hrs. of sober life......