24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 280
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Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife 
2:28 pm Maryland
Relaxing with some silence in the background, for once, as my toddler takes his blessed nap.
Feeling really disconnected this week- tired of the binge eating- tired of letting my life pass through my fingers all based on how I feel about my body. I want to release this deranged thinking for once and for all. I feel like I'm missing out on so much and it's all because of my disordered view on my body and what it means. In reality, it means nothing. How I look means nothing. So why do I put so much pressure on myself to be thin and look a certain way? I can't live this way anymore. I haven't been to the pool in over 2 weeks. I cancelled a fun day trip with a great friend because I had binged the night before. What kind of life is that?
Did a nice meditation a little while ago and some journaling- had my lunch and now I'm not sure what to do with myself. I am a bit lonely honestly. Can't wait for my parents and sister to get back from their vacations. It's been 4 weeks already.
Congrats to those celebrating today and my love and thoughts are always with those struggling.
Relaxing with some silence in the background, for once, as my toddler takes his blessed nap.
Feeling really disconnected this week- tired of the binge eating- tired of letting my life pass through my fingers all based on how I feel about my body. I want to release this deranged thinking for once and for all. I feel like I'm missing out on so much and it's all because of my disordered view on my body and what it means. In reality, it means nothing. How I look means nothing. So why do I put so much pressure on myself to be thin and look a certain way? I can't live this way anymore. I haven't been to the pool in over 2 weeks. I cancelled a fun day trip with a great friend because I had binged the night before. What kind of life is that?
Did a nice meditation a little while ago and some journaling- had my lunch and now I'm not sure what to do with myself. I am a bit lonely honestly. Can't wait for my parents and sister to get back from their vacations. It's been 4 weeks already.
Congrats to those celebrating today and my love and thoughts are always with those struggling.
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Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife
2:28 pm Maryland
Relaxing with some silence in the background, for once, as my toddler takes his blessed nap.
Feeling really disconnected this week- tired of the binge eating- tired of letting my life pass through my fingers all based on how I feel about my body. I want to release this deranged thinking for once and for all. I feel like I'm missing out on so much and it's all because of my disordered view on my body and what it means. In reality, it means nothing. How I look means nothing. So why do I put so much pressure on myself to be thin and look a certain way? I can't live this way anymore. I haven't been to the pool in over 2 weeks. I cancelled a fun day trip with a great friend because I had binged the night before. What kind of life is that?
Did a nice meditation a little while ago and some journaling- had my lunch and now I'm not sure what to do with myself. I am a bit lonely honestly. Can't wait for my parents and sister to get back from their vacations. It's been 4 weeks already.
Congrats to those celebrating today and my love and thoughts are always with those struggling.
Relaxing with some silence in the background, for once, as my toddler takes his blessed nap.
Feeling really disconnected this week- tired of the binge eating- tired of letting my life pass through my fingers all based on how I feel about my body. I want to release this deranged thinking for once and for all. I feel like I'm missing out on so much and it's all because of my disordered view on my body and what it means. In reality, it means nothing. How I look means nothing. So why do I put so much pressure on myself to be thin and look a certain way? I can't live this way anymore. I haven't been to the pool in over 2 weeks. I cancelled a fun day trip with a great friend because I had binged the night before. What kind of life is that?
Did a nice meditation a little while ago and some journaling- had my lunch and now I'm not sure what to do with myself. I am a bit lonely honestly. Can't wait for my parents and sister to get back from their vacations. It's been 4 weeks already.
Congrats to those celebrating today and my love and thoughts are always with those struggling.
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Originally Posted by Pebbles666
Please dont be lonely Sunflower. You are not alone. I feel totally the same as you. Years of pouring spirits mixed with gallons of coke down my neck has turned my once ok body into an overweight horrid shell. The sugar cravings have not helped lately. But small steps. We are amazing for telling the alcohol poison to pee off. We can sort out the rest one day at a time...just like we do the drink. We can encourage each other. I've been saying for weeks that I am going swimming....or jogging. Instead I have binged on Netflix. We can name a day...when we both have an hour or two...do some exercise....and report back here straight after....and give each other a pat on the back. Ready for it Sunny ???😀😀 xxxx
are you watching me in my home 
oh netflix eh!what about just 15 minutes to start.
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Originally Posted by erfra7
are you watching me in my home oh netflix eh!what about just 15 minutes to start.
15 mins it is!!! I have to do some exercise...mentally and physically need to. Hoping it will help me find that elusive inner peace. Sending love and hugs erfra.xxxx
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Originally Posted by Pebbles666
15 mins it is!!! I have to do some exercise...mentally and physically need to. Hoping it will help me find that elusive inner peace. Sending love and hugs erfra.xxxx
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Originally Posted by joandmelandhan
Count me in too!
Struggling today ...mentally....so staying on here and reading everything..Hope you're ok. Sending squishies. Xxxx
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Originally Posted by Pebbles666
Please dont be lonely Sunflower. You are not alone. I feel totally the same as you. Years of pouring spirits mixed with gallons of coke down my neck has turned my once ok body into an overweight horrid shell. The sugar cravings have not helped lately. But small steps. We are amazing for telling the alcohol poison to pee off. We can sort out the rest one day at a time...just like we do the drink. We can encourage each other. I've been saying for weeks that I am going swimming....or jogging. Instead I have binged on Netflix. We can name a day...when we both have an hour or two...do some exercise....and report back here straight after....and give each other a pat on the back. Ready for it Sunny ???😀😀 xxxx
Please don't be hard on yourself either. We are doing a great thing here being sober. The rest will fall into place in time, at least I hope so. Thank you for the comment and for helping me feel less alone.
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Good morning all- Id love another 24 more hours please. Day 6 today and I've woken up early to go to the gym( first time in such a long time!!)
I've realised that what I've been doing hasn't worked for me so time to make changes! Hope everyone is travelling well. Sending more love to Kris.. thinking about you my lovely friend xx
5.02am Perth, Western Australia xxx
I've realised that what I've been doing hasn't worked for me so time to make changes! Hope everyone is travelling well. Sending more love to Kris.. thinking about you my lovely friend xx
5.02am Perth, Western Australia xxx
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Hey back sweetie pie! I find binging on SR sometimes is all I can really face doing too Pebbs. You're doing great you do know that don't you? Big squishies back and look after yourself. Nothing matters except not drinking sometimes Pebbles ❤❤❤
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Originally Posted by erfra7
hi, I'm where you are too. you are not alone. love and hugs 
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Sunflower you are beautiful inside and out. It's awful when we get to feel down about our appearance when in actual fact you're a brilliant mum to your little ones and fighting the good fight every single day.
I truly hope you can find some balance and see in yourself what others see ❤❤❤
I truly hope you can find some balance and see in yourself what others see ❤❤❤
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Originally Posted by erfra7
ok my first 15 min. of exercise is done . holy crap i need to go back to work couch potato is not for me. i gain 40 lbs.
Nite nite everyone. Hugs. Xxx
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