courage2

I won't.

I'm having a hard time rebounding from recent stress. Mentally I'm all over the place, I get fidgety and hyper alternately with dark and cynical, I have a strange cough, I don't want to eat. Sleep is ok when I finally get around to sleeping, but I don't settle down to turn out the light for a long time. And I think about drinking too much.

I wish that my only marketable skill required less work to produce.

courage2

^^^ on the other hand, I can laugh at myself and my plights and gripes. Pay me no mind when I complain -- I'm a lucky girl, twice-lucky for knowing it!

If I don't pick up a drug or drink, I'm more well than I could be. Every sober day is a gift of grace that lets me know I'm alive.

courage2

That sounded cheese-y. But I needed to remind myself.

Dee74

not cheesy

D

PhoenixJ

Cheesy, cliché- who cares? So long as we mean and believe what we say. Cilche away, cheesy away. I am right in the thick of it.

courage2

Hi Phoenix -- how are you doing?

Gilmer

HI, you guys!

quitter62

I'll take some more CHEESE!

I didn't really find your comments cheesy but if you say so I'll take any and all the positive vibes and success stories I can get hold of. Every single person here inspires me. We all have different experiences and different recoveries but one bond in the goal of sober living.

I pledge to NOT drink today! Day 5 beginning here, 4:18am and getting ready for work.

Gilmer

Have a great day, Quitter!

courage2

Someone told me something I appreciated today. She said that she knew that I'd gotten where/become what I am at some personal sacrifrice. For some reason it was good to hear that someone, someone who doesn't even know me well, understood that the "me" that's out there is not the me that I set out to be. I'm not bad, I'm ok, & I take responsibility for my choices -- still, this life wasn't what I might have chosen if I'd always had a choice.

courage2

I will not and did not.

It's very quiet around here. I wonder why that is? I hope all of you are well.

Dee74

Hope your Friday will be a good one Courage

D

Gilmer

I'm not quiet, Courage--an hour ago it was just too early to be awake.

Now at 1:00 apparently it's time!

I hope you and everybody else has a good day tomorrow (today for those of you who are more "advanced")!

That includes you, Del.

PhoenixJ

G- so it is about 1400 there? How can you sleep? That's normal
Hello C2- I am fine thankyou for asking about 976893 years ago. All good?
Keep safe, sober, sane and serene all. PJ

Gilmer

I can definitely sleep at 1400--or more like 1430. Sometimes I like afternoon naps, and the best time seems to be 1430.

quitter62

Good morning all! Checking in again here and many other threads to stay committed! No drinking today, starting Day 6 and feeling GREAT! 18 degrees this morning, Baby it's COLD OUTSIDE!

Merigold

Checking in but not sober.


I'm such a piece of ****. Last week I've had this horrific anxiety....I was worried about getting a bad report on my work review. I'm drunk, A lot of the time.

Apparently I have got away with it this year again!

Not sure whether to be happy or not about it.

Merigold

I can't keep doing this.


I just want my life to end. It IS not worth it, sorry.

It is literally not worth it......

Gilmer

Call the Samaritans if you are really down--they are good at knowing just what to say at the right time.

Are you drinking now? If so, then your emotions are overly exaggerated. You aren't seeing clearly.

Try to sleep. Sleep puts many cares to rest.

courage2

Lovely to see you, quitter & PJ & gilmer -- and merigold, but merigold, when you wake up, you need to make a change. What do you do *today* that helps you stay sober?

For instance, where do you get that wine? First thing, never go there again. Take it off your route home.

For instance, who do you talk to about wanting to drink -- *before* you drink? Someone to check in with every day is almost essential, and if the forums aren't enough, add.

It your sobriety plan isn't working, don't ditch it, add more.