Originally Posted by growpath

Hi my friends. This, I tell ya is where my heart belongs. I come here and am like instahappy AV started yapping today and I am like where the hell did you come from BUT I was ready!!!.....SO as planned I let it sit for a minute while I was at work because I knew the option to drink was not there.... Started thinking about my plan and knew from experience this guy only wants to hurt me mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically. I took myself back to two weeks ago and thought real hard about the tape on rewind and fast forward.......and then on the ride home I picked up the phone and called a sober friend to remind me as well about the hell I was going through then and to remind me of reasons I quit. After we hung up I told myself..just today I wont drink over and over. I drove a different route home..a more annoying one but hey I did not pass the corner store! I made me a nice big healthy dinner and logged on here right when I got home..... and BOOM he is gone! He will be back and I will be even stronger and more prepared when it does return. So, yeah thanks guys you played a part in that as well A huge downfall for me in the past has been acting right on to a craving when it hits. I have learned I don't have to act on that craving and if I refer to the plan and fight it it WILL pass. I don't have to go back there. A craving hurts but only for a minute. If I picked up one drink I would be off for the dang races and the obsession would be right smack back!!! Anyway, what I read last night that I told you I would mention here was: "i find a false sense of security in the illusion of control....I act like it is something tangible, something to grasp, something to call my own when in fact it is not. Sure control feels safe and familiar but the truth is trying to be the director of all life's unfoldings leaves me out of balance. When I become aware that I am trying to force things and control I take a step back and regroup. I focus on a place of both letting go and anchoring then I feel much better" "why identify so rigidly with our thoughts about our temporary life circumstances and all the subsequent mental dramas they create? .....he talks about how 5 minutes, days, weeks, months etc etc and how much wasted energy he poured into things that just did not last and how he wasted so much stress and grief on them...." I dunno this is from the book Everything Mind By Grosso. There is a lot more to it but particularly chapters 15 & 16 really help me better understand the concept of "being right where I supposed to be"..I did not used to even know what that meant when people said it. Anyway, I hope all my beauties have a great evening/day where ever your souls may be.....xo

Originally Posted by SoberDave999

First night effort here. Hoping to stop in tomorrow night to report my first 24 hours. Technically it's been like 21 hours, but this next 3 is the hardest time for me drinking-wise. Realizing I find most things I like to do boring without booze...

Originally Posted by ForgiveMeAll

Great job beating that AV and thanks for sharing the words from your book.

Originally Posted by venuscat