Dee74

Please don't dwell on it ST - you said something I didn't entirely agree with - it doesn't mean I don't like you anymore.

You're perfectly entitled to a bad day or a bad mood, man.

Quit saying sorry

SMART has some good stuff on 'awfulising'
http://www.smartrecovery.org/resourc...anti_awful.htm
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obosob

I'm just waiting for my invitation to new York.
Go Yankees. ...
Take it easy ST.
You're part of an international alliance. ..
In for the bargain. .
Salad rolls
Footy......
Anna loves the footy...

Stay tuned......

Dee74

what team does she barrack for Obo?

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SolitaryThinker

I read the stuff from smart and I have to use that daily honestly...I know it's my perception...I think when I speak my opinion that it means that everyone is going to leave me, and it's insanely illogical

SolitaryThinker

Thank you
I can't take it easy...

SolitaryThinker

I guess I just have my defenses up
So high still and I convince myself that nobody wants to be around me...and that I'm not worth anybody's time

SolitaryThinker

It's a bi product of feeling unloved as a child...and attention seeking/people pleasing...I'm just disgusted with myself in so any different ways tonight but like I said, I'm not
Doing anything extreme...gonna go to bed and hope the world dosent hate me as much tomorrow as it did today...I take everything for granted and can't stand it....I'm just still so frustrated with myself and still not even 30 yet...

SolitaryThinker

If you guys weren't understanding I would have lost another group of people...but I'm used to it lol...it's a joke

SolitaryThinker

Ungh...I gotta stop...goodnight...and I don't care I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry

Dee74

I dunno what else to tell you ST - none of that stuff you're telling yourself is true.

I think it's about time you gave yourself a break, honestly.

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SolitaryThinker

I'm getting scared D, I can't

Dee74

I'm not trying to scare you

This stuff is a process ST not an event - it's gonna take a little time.

I think getting some sleep right now is a good idea, man

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SolitaryThinker

Ill try...I'm friggen nuts 8/


Goodnight

SolitaryThinker

An exorbitant amount of pent up frustration, anger, and just hatred right now... I'm done tho...till tomorrow I guess...please be well everyone <3

Dee74

I don't think you're nuts man - no more than the rest of us anyway
see you later

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rockstonic

Yup ST, that's something I really struggle with too. So I do a lot of people pleasing. And then I erupt in angry outbursts and people are like "where did that come from?" The best way I've learned to avoid that is to quit saying sorry for having an opinion. But that's just my opinion

Bit of a struggle for me tonight. I recognized the feeling that I get that used to set me off on binges. The "I don't know what to do with myself I can't breathe and I'm so upset I can't even process why I'm upset" kind of feeling. It kind of scared me. But it always scares me. That's why I used to drink, so that feeling would just disappear for awhile. Instead I took my dog for a walk. I'm still kind of upset, but a little less so. And hey, I'm sober. So that's cool too.

freein14

Rocks, sounds like you're dealing with those feelings in a really healthy and proactive way. Remember we're here if you need us though. Great work, you're amazing!

Hope you have a good night's sleep ST, sweet dreams <3

obosob

Certainly no more crazy than moi ST.
Dee: The Saints, like daddy....
Rocks: Me too!!! Posting here and walking. Then walking and thinking about posting have got me through so many times....
Hi Freein....

Stay tuned....

Dee74

LOL the only Saints I know come from Brissie, Obo

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MariahGayle

Little Anna with Daddy watching the Footy.....It's a beautiful day